SyafiQah

2011-12-25T23:19:00.002+08:00

To infinity and beyond..
"Hidup, penuh dengan tanda tanya.. bagaimana kesudahannya... gembira atau kecewa.."

I find that whole sentence amazing.
And it happened to be a verse from a song.
It's difficult to live life meaningfully sometimes.
What it takes for that would be a sincere heart and an abundance of appreciation for the people you love and care so much.
Appreciate them like you could not meet them anymore forever.

And that would be the most difficult part ever.
It seems like you take things for granted when that person gives you almost all love and care that you think.... "uh, it's okay.. I'll get to meet them tomorrow."
But, You may never know...
haha..
Not trying to scare you xP

People rely on other people's lives as example.
Which means, if your surrounding behaves that way, you will be like that too.
Sometimes, you lost your self value.
You need to love yourself before you love others, find the happiness in you before you make people happy.

And I hope, it could sustain.

It's scary when you start to imagine about your future and suddenly you realized that it's wrong to think too much and you forced yourself to stop thinking.

I profusely whispered inside, "please please Allah, please make my future wonderful and blissful and please refrain myself from hoping and expecting too much."

It made my heart beat real real fast. I'm AFRAID.

2011-07-16T15:48:00.002+08:00

A little crook a doodle! =)
*winks*

Fresh day, fresh page and a fresh new post!
It'd been such a long time since I've practiced English and updated my blog. Either ways, I'm trying to say that I'm bad in consistency of doing anything. MY BAD... chk3....

Hmm.... today's topic? ;
People change as time flies.
Well, besides that I would not want to remember what brings me here now.
All my life I've never planned things to happened this way neither did I expect things to happen like this.
But sure, I'm thankful that it all happened for some good reasons and lead me on to give me a reason to smile day by day.

HARRY POTTER was awesome. I love the ending soooooo much.
I give harry potter a lifetime rating of 4.5 popcorns.
I loved the part when it was 19 years later, it made me awe inside....
hehe..
Especially me, being an easy influenced type A girl, lols.. I've been like chanting their spells again and again.
Sectumsemptra~ die u die die die!!!
haha lolsss whateverr ok! whatever. ;)

Hmmmm.... such a nice weather today to go jogging and doing some breathtaking strolls...
Too bad I have kenduri later... It's like a religious fiest?! my dad always told me that kenduri is called a religious fiest.... how come it sounds like a hungry ghost festival sort of thing...with fiest... haha..

Okok... To tell u the truth, I just can't wait for my holidays...I hope I'm fortunately lucky to have a holiday without homeworks this time round. *chuckles*

So yeaaa..... got to go then.
Will try to be consistent huh... Will post in soon..
Adios my friends.. =)
xoxo. ;P

2011-02-18T20:02:00.002+08:00

HELLO people! :)

First and foremost, it'd been long since I blogged in. Apologies to my blog readers who have constantly sending me emails asking me to update.. hehe.. appreciate it loads. Warm smile to all, especiall to my foreign pals. :)

Well life hasnt always been blissful.
It's like a wheel, some cliche might say...full of ups and downs.. yeah.
Everyone has their own story to share.
Everyone has their own little darkest secret, no one might ever know.
You might look like a saint, or an angel but purely how true innocent your heart is?
Maybe there are totally angelic people around, but honestly I don't belong in that group.
I'm far far away from an angel.

Sometimes, I feel guilty each time I prayed and face God. I feel like I've did a lot of sins to someone who gave me too much luxury in life that I hadnt had the chance to sit and appreciate.

I'd have to learn that life isn't ALWAYS about being happy and all around laughters.

Sometimes you might be seeking what you really want in life.
Who is the one that you should love.
Where is the best place you should stay and hold on.
And at times, when you get all the things you have been wishing all this while,
it turned out to be something you didnt want anymore.

Sometimes, you thought that you couldnt live without this special spark in your life,
but in an instant you gave it a thought that maybe all this happened for a reason.
Blessings in disguise you might call it. :)

2011-02-04T21:12:00.002+08:00

During my silat days... ;)
This is taken with Kakwe at ECP.
I miss joining all kinds of activities that I used to join...
One truth about me, I'm a hopper.
CCA, activities, clubs and associates..
I love anything, anywhere, anywhen.
So I'll join anything, then I'll quit and join other things I find interesting hehe.

Hmmmm....
I miss my soccer friends.. and my soccer days..
That's when I made lotsa fun people.. =)
I miss everything that made me happy and healthy.

Yesterday I realised something after I met someone.
I realised that all this while I've been putting in too much for something not essential.
Everything that affects my emotions and made me lose my spark of cheerfulness I usually have in me.

My friends told me I'm not used to be like this..
All that love could destroy.
Cey..
Well, I'm not depressed laaa so dont tell me to cheer up okie hahaha.
I'm just disappointed cause really, I dint expect things to turn out this way.

I think everything happened for a reason.
So I decided to just let go of everything and forget about the bad past cause my future one will deserve better out of me. =)

And now I'm thankful to Allah coz my feelings totally fade away.. although I know that space for him will always be in my heart. It's really okay cause I don't wanna share love.
One heart for one human, not two, three or four.

Now that I'm free being single and have more time to occupy myself,
I'm planning to tone my body down and be as fit as I can. Insya allah... So let's see what can I join next..hehe

Anyways... Dani did something for me today.
Shall credit him here. ^^
He did a soccer team reunion cos he want me to meet them and re unite again..
Pics all at Dani's laptop sooo yeaaa said he was lazy to send.. haahha
SEND CEPAT2 OKAY! :D
And thanks alot Dani for being the organizer.. ;P
I had a great time really.
It was all a surprise.. Thanks guys for the chocolate cake treat! ;)

Insya allah if I can't see any other interesting sports and leisure to join out there, I'll get back to our team Alpha!! :)
I LOVE YOU GUYS.
THANKS ALOT FOR TODAYyyyy.. ;)

2011-01-22T20:42:00.002+08:00

Doubts are the very first reasons of insecurities.
Sometimes, insecurities are things that could make you insane but sometimes it made you learn something in return.

Doubts doubts doubts.

Dont put up flame and catch fire.
Smile if you can, laughters will go along.
Count the number of smiles you had as compared to the number or tears you droped each day.
Maybe that's the reason why God is fair. ;)

Goodnight.
Adios amigos hahahahaha. xD

2011-01-19T00:18:00.002+08:00

Sis Hawa and me. :)

This morning I was totally in a rush. Autocad lagged, can't do my work.. So I took my time to reconfigure everything up and somehow by luck, it survived. alhamdulillah. (:

Afterward, I headed down to amk and meet zhonghua and farah for our typo project and soon later, met kakwe! :) meeting kakwe was the most interesting part of the day that I looked forward for. hehe.
Actually, we are cousins, I know we looked like total opposite.
Reason why maybe cause she's indian mixed and I'm thailand mixed up. So we are both jumbled up. hahaha.

Well that was this morning that I felt glad I woke up normally.

Unlike yesterday morning, I woke up at the wrong side of the bed..
I woke up realizing that whatever happened the day before was actually depressing.
school work load, Final Sem assignments, people....people... people... people.. things.
everything was just a mess in my head that day.
I know it's not my PMS this time round ok. hahaha
:/
In addition, it was a MONDAY.
So everything wasn't that right actually.

Now, read this:

I can't deny the fact that sometimes I can be a total egoist.
And sometimes, what I felt was not what I let out.
I may tell you how much I hate you when deep inside, you might never know what it is.
I may say that I'd never care at all, but read my actions and touch my heart. Then you'll know.
Sometimes, I think and take things too deeply that it will hit my past again and I stumbled.
I know I have to let go of the past.
It's killing me.

now tell me what water tastes like?
Exactly.You just can't explain them.
The same reason for why
love is just so confusing.
It's all sets and kinds of feelings being compressed together.
It's like something you can't describe.
Sometimes you can really love and be so happy about it. But when suddenly you lost your mood and energy, you don't feel like you love.

Well, I used to think that love's like fairytales. In reality, fairytales dont last long. :/

And sometimes, certain things that you heard could be so hurtful and painful to take in.
And the next second, that thought will linger on until at a certain point you feel like giving up.

BUT...
things happen for a reason.
and no matter how bad I am in handling feelings and my own emotions, I'll try to be optimistic about it.
When I think good, I'll feel good.

I choose to let nature take its place and I'll go where the wind blow.
I'll let my heart choose which way to go.

Hari-hari makan bayam,
ok bye selamat malam! hehehee ;P

Nite*

2011-01-11T12:03:00.003+08:00

WHEN THINGS GET MESSED UP, you arrange them.

Sometimes I wonder why is there necessary to feel sad.
Reason being is because we are homo sapient, we have emotions and our body have plenty of water so we can definitely cry it out without worrying of insufficiency of water.
bla5..

Well cut the crap.

Sometimes I feel like there's a change in the world I'm living now.
People start to be more nosier since the evolution of facebook.
Updating statuses about every each personal issues..
and other people will be reading their personal matters on news feed.
No matter what, people still read and put a comment either literally or in their hearts.
And if it is a comment in their hearts, it might be a form of gossip you see.

Thats the reason why Im afraid of putting any self claim comments on facebook.
The world isnt so kind nowadays to understand.
Sigh.

2010-12-19T00:16:00.003+08:00

People think a soul mate is a perfect fit, and that’s what everyone wants.
But a true soulmate is a mirror,
the person who shows you everything that’s holding you back,
the person who brings you to your own attention so you can change your life.

A true soulmate is probably the most important person you’ll ever meet, because they tear you down your walls and smack you awake.

— Eat, Sleep, Pray by Elizabeth Gilbert

2010-12-12T13:18:00.003+08:00

People can stereotype and give a bloody hard time for me.
I know it's very difficult to satisfy everyone in this world.
But what I went through is never what you could understand.
And sincerity couldnt just be expressed by words.
Believe me.
Trust me.
It's another whole new chapter.
Live it. Love it.
Enjoy it. Cherish it. :)

2010-12-04T12:12:00.002+08:00

It's when you want to be together despite it all. :)

I'm currently sitting at the edge of my living room, while the windows at the side are opened so widely.
So now I can clearly see the skies moving.
It's very beautiful, mesmerising.
I love it when it rains, it gives coolness to our heart and soul and somehow, we feel much much enlightened.
And cause when it rains, we know what lies between our hearts. For this one, you won't get what I mean.
;)

Things have been such a chaos, my phone making problems, homeworks piling up...etc....
At the end of the day, I smiled with relieve.
I've been going through so much obstacles and that was when I realized that now, I'm moving on to the next phase of life.

Now what!?
hmmm I'm gonna get ready soon.
I'll be out in a while to my aunt's place.

Note to self: Don't let anything bring you down. Smile.

2010-12-04T11:48:00.003+08:00

Good Morninggg world! :)

I miss those bunch. Each and every one of them. And some other, who's not in the picture.
I know I'll miss them like how I missed my secondary school friends now.

I miss my usual sunday mornings.. When I woke up, get ready to go madrasah.
I miss all those uniforms I had, it kept me feel like im in the go-to-school-kind of-mood. haha!
And getting grumbles from mum to quickly get ready for school.
hahaha.. well, all those are just happy moments I could flash back.
I'm thankful to Allah because he gave me the opportunity to go this far.

I bumped into one of my childhood friend the other day when I was waiting for a train back home.
We were in the same school for so long but we havent even talked for once.
And i approached her to say hey.
hahahhahha xD
And I was quite shocked to know that despite all the negative thoughts I had about her, she's actually a very nice person.
But she had those negative thoughts about me also, so we laughed at how we ended up talking now.
So yea, old memories just come by and suddenly I feel like hugging all my close friends in secondary school now to tell them how much I miss all of them.

awww. :)

2010-12-01T22:25:00.002+08:00

Well, uh?!
HELLOOOO!

It's never too late to save up for this.
Red one pleaseeeeee :)
I dont like red but i like this red shoe. hahahahaha
ok, no.
Can i have the pink one too?
Err.. or the blue one?
errrrrr can i have all?
hahahaha xD
fickled, yes I know.
can't help it.
One new wadrobe for collection of vans. Yaaa right, in my dreams gagaga xD

*
Nights! ;)

2010-11-30T21:40:00.002+08:00

Holla! :)

Not busy, just plain lazy to update my blog hahahaha..
Maybe cause I've nothing interesting to tell.
If have also, I wont tell nyahahahaha xP
"Well, who cares?!" heheehe! ^.^
Okay okay.

I just can't wait for sunday...
my kapoera's performanceeee yaaayy ;)
but after the performance im going to quit, told my instructor im going for trial only hahahaha i know bullshit, thank you thank you xP

I dont know what's wrong with me lah, I've always been a cca-hopper since primary school.
Join, have fun, quit, go other cca, join, have fun, quit.
haha, bad bad i know but I wont feel satisfied until I tried everything I could try in this world.
I bet there's loadsss more to join and quit muahaaha x)

Anyways, i finally watched princess hours after so long i wanna watch...
So yeaaa here is the video of parts their love scenes i like the most coz verryyyyy sweeeeet
hehe!

Idk if can watch or not but if cannot, u click on this link ok:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UOC5JTDqPmA&feature=related

Ok ciaooo sinciiii
byeeee
goodnight worlddddd
i hope all of u sleep well with sweet dreams tonight ;)
xoxo

2010-10-24T21:44:00.002+08:00

HI HELLO HELLI HELLU HELLA HEEEEYYYY~

I have something emotional to share today.. not as the usual jovial things I usually say...

Sometimes, I thought I could stand on my own.
I thought I don't even need love I dont even need someone.
I thought love is stupid after all I've went through..
I feel disgusted everytime I thought of being in love again.
I used to make a promise to myself NOT to fall in love with anyone anymore..
I'm afraid of falling in love and suddenly I became prejudice.

But how now, I ask myself what's this feeling all about??
I didn't search for it, in fact I avoided it but it kept coming nearer, closer...
What I know, Allah's opening up my heart, slowly, deeply
and slowly, changing my perception against what I usually believe in.

I can just feel something, different.
and what's that all about?

Ustazah: *..... cinta itu sesuatu perasaan yang indah.
Me: * (Blur) (nudge nabilah) Eh, ape tu cinta ah?!
Nabilah: *hmmm cinta itu 3 benda, keikhlasan, kesabaran dan kejujuran.
Me: * wow! mana tahu?
Nabilah: *kan ustazah bilang.. kenapa, kau jatuh cinta eh? hahahah
Me: *merepek! macam mana nk tau kalau jatuh cinta ke tak?
Nabilah: *aku pun tak tau hahahaha
Me: *hahahhaahahahahhahaahhahahhhhhhaaaaaa!

2010-10-09T11:23:00.005+08:00

I WENT TO EGYPT, NEW YORK, USA....
ALL IN ONE DAY.
HAHAHAHAHHAHHAAA!
no lah, it's universal studiosssss weeee
had loads of fun. ;)

2010-09-30T17:35:00.002+08:00

There's always a reason behind every smile.
A smile can change everything.
A change can be something....(:

May peace be upon you readers of the mighty mighty world... :)

First of all, I had so much fun with kakak n kak faeza, my cousin, yesterday.
We ran, fly kite and do all the very fun things together...
hehehehe..
Although my kite can't fly so high like the rest, I'm happy that at least, I enjoyed every single moment with them.
and I'm happy cause my kite is beautiful... ;P

Then as I watched the sky and the sunset, I realised, how beautiful the world is....
I just love the nature so much, it's pretty.
Just look at the sky, tell me where's the ending?
Absolutely!
No ending at all!!!
This means the world is biggggggggggggggg and beautifullllll....
yeaaah... *smiling to myself*
thank you allah for the beautiful world. hehehhh!

So weyyy wait.
I know that one day, my kite will fly as high as the rest!
hehehehehehehe!
tanak kalah ehh.. ;P
ok people, till here thn!

Nights.

Life is like a canvas. It begins blank, and every day is like another brush stroke. Make your life a masterpiece.
- http://daisier-filmtales.tumblr.com/ :D

2010-09-28T20:51:00.007+08:00

May peace be upon you people. :)

It's nine twenty six PM and I'm enjoying the fresh breeze.
Hmmmm.....

I'm back from malacca..! take time to chill and relax there.
I really love those village-air you've just got to feel when you woke up very early in the morning, open the windows and breatheeeeeeeeee in deeeeeep.
So refreshing! hehe!

Actually, just the night before I went to malacca, I went out with my secondary school friends for raya.
I really miss them all alot.
And still, some could not make it.
In fact, most...
Nadiah(!), Shairah, Noris, Amirah, Zeenat, Fahmy, Khairulamsyar, Hanu....
loads moreeeee.... :(
But nah... it's okay, I understand.
All of them got reason mahh. =)

I hope, ten years down the road these people won't stray apart.
Friends forever after kay babes? :D
Haha, I know it sounds like some childish quotes you often heard all along in primary school..
But hey! I'm still young at heart ok! hehe! ;P

So, this is the best picture out of all cause everyone is included, smiling and everyone look gorgeous here.. :)
Co incidentally, all of us wear a COOL colour combination.
We don't have all those nonsense couple2 mrepek thing eh!
we just wear what we want to wear without telling each other..
and coincidentally, we got 3 blues, 3 reds and 2 purples.... *ehems* and ONE white angel... hehehehe....

Mm kay, the best part of the day was when we played bunga api together and ended up playing truth or dare.
End up, we sit in a circle and talked about our personal lives.
That's when everything got touchy feely...
hahahaha! Quite sad lah. :(

After all, thanks alot guys. ;)
You all made my day.
A very special day indeed.

Okaaaaaaaaaaay...
And this one...

This picture brings too much similarity in my life now.
Cut it short.
Allah suddenly showed me this new guy..
And it was just the first time we met.
And I dont know why he reminds me of everything.
Every single thing that ever happened in my life....

But I've only like known him for less then a year, I dont know what's this feeling really.
Have anyone ever felt this way?
hmmmm......

It's okay...I don't want to elaborate or it'll get too obvious. haha.
I hope he don't come here to read this eh. Insya allah amin.
I know it's very very very confusing eh?

Mmmm kay. I think I shouldn't get distracted laaaa.

Let time and destiny answer these questions I've been trying to figure out ok!

I've got to concentrate on things that are essential first and be what I wanna be..
NOWWWW!
hmm.. fierce tak?
hehe!

Oklah, im tired and sleepy now.
goodnight world and homosapiens. ;]

2010-09-22T12:16:00.002+08:00

20/09/2010
11:23:21
Dear syafiqah,

I hope you could spend some time to answer these survey questions I copied from the internet.

From hazzeeq,cookie monster ;P

SOOOO... here u go...

SECRETS.

(One) When did you last cry?
two days ago..

(Two) Do you believe in religion?
Yes. I love my religion and I'm glad to be a muslim.

(Three) When was the last time you fell asleep with someone of the opposite sex?
Haha... ten years ago? i slept with my brother. :)

(Four) What is the last lie you told your parents?
Can't recall.. i don't know how to lie, they'll end up knowing the truth xD

(Five) Did you ever wish a close friend to death?
Nope...

(Six) Has a guy/girl ever seriously punched you more than once?
Nah.. :)

(Seven) Have you ever made out until you ran out of breath?
Nope. I've never kissed any guy before in my entire life. I'll save the best for my true love, my husband. In the future laa

(Eight) Do you think you were ever in love?
Yeah..but not anymore. :)

(One) Have you ever dated your friend’s ex?
No laa! seow ah?

(Two) Have you done bad things with your parents near by?
No..

(Three) Have you started a horrible rumor about somebody?
Ummm i dont think so.. haha

(Four) Did you ever fail the school year?
Nopee.

(Five) Have you ever done hallucinogenic drugs?
what's that? hahaha nooo... i think..

(Six) Have you ever been too drunk to remember a certain night?
I dont even drink n want to drink. Not appetizing. :)

(Seven) Do you think your future will be a good one?
Yes insya allah. =)

....How big is your bed?
No bed. :)

....What are you listening to right now?
My mum talking on the phone. heheh!

....What are the last 4 digits in your cell phone number?
4558.

....What was the last thing you ate?
curry with bread.

....Last person you hugged?
My old time friend when I bumped into her the other day cause i miss her so..

....How is the weather right now?
Sunnyyyy ;)

....Who was the last person you talked to on the phone?
khydir, my best friend. :)

....What is the first thing you notice in the opposite sex?
character. Smile. EYESSS... hehee

....Favorite type of Food?
Japanese food.. Malay food..

....Do you want children?
yes insya allah in th future. Not now.. hehhh

....Do you drink?
Never.

....Hair color?
black.

....Eye color?
black.

....Do you wear contacts/glasses?
Neither.

....Favorite holiday?
school holiday. the longer, the better.

....Favorite weather?
Rainy.. :)

....Have you ever cried over a girl/boy?
Ever but after that I'll laugh about it cause i know it's silly. haha

....Last Movie you Watched?
Resident evil afterlife! :D

....What books are you reading?
Agatha christie: and then there were none

....Piercings?
ears, one on each ear.. hahaha

....Favorite Movie?
None? hahhaa... all the same feeling.

....Favorite college football Team?
HUH? DOnt know. haha

....What were you doing before filling this out?
checking my email haha...

....Any pets?
I have one sweetheart hamster at home. Only one. :)

....Dogs or cats?
both.. :)

....Favorite Flower?
white flowers. :)

K donee. :D bye.

2010-09-01T00:13:00.004+08:00

HEY HEY HEY! :D

I know this blog's turning dusty and rusty.
hahahaha!

First of all,
SELAMAT BERPUASA MUSLIMIN DAN MUSLIMAT! :)

Well nothing much really happened. Everything's still so fine and usual.
Only that since yesterday I'm having a hard time.
It's like a bad week for me although I can't actually believe all this superstitious things.. :(

Hahaaa forget it. I don't like to drag on the bad stuffs that happened in my life. :)

OK yeeeeaaa, last fri, me and bananad went to watch SALT at jubilee.
It was an unexpected plan lor hahaha
and we ended up conquering the whole cinema.
There's only four people in the cinema including me and bananad.
Know why, cause we came at 1030 am. :) Hahaa.
Well that's not the best part.
The best part was, Angelina Jolie acted so well that I think the movie deserved a four star rating!

During the movie my mind was fully 100% on the show, figuring out the case mystery while nadiah beside me kept on *buzz**buzz* SMS on the phone.
But I still wonder how she could like understand the whole thing. -.-
Bacin punya nadiah. Heehehe

After the movie, I felt like I wanna be CIA officer hahaha~
Berangan...
I kept on telling nadiah, "eh... kau imagine aku lompat gi atas mrt, aku tembak2 orang. Best seh."
Nadiah laughed like heck after that.
She told me it was super funny.
She spoil the cool seh. -.- Hahah

But anyway, I had fun crapping with her.
It's like super long we've never done that.
I wish, naz noris and shai were there too. :(
Naaaah it's okay we shall patiently wait for the perfect date k! =D

Anyway today I was supposed to go iftar with my madrasah friends, but my SSA friends was warded in the hospital..
I felt really bad cause I can't make it.

For my SSA buddies, I'm really worried for them. They got into an accident and they weren't in a very good condition.
I went to visit them afterwards after I went to school to take exam n after bishan with farah, lyd and fiz...and I was shocked to see all the five of them in the hospital!

Dani called and told me that Afiz was warded but I didnt know that all five were there too.
Well guys, i hope you all will get well soon aite.
I'll come and drop by anytime I'm free k. :)

Anyways, my mind was super free when I took the exam just now despite all the bad things that ruined my entire night and day.
Pheww I kept on reciting doa so that allah will put those thoughts away for awhile and let me concentrate.
And it worked so alhamdulillah...
Haiyayaaa.

So tomorrow till I-don't-know-when-I'm-coming-home, I'll be sleeping over at my granny's house.
I knew just by this, I could relax myself and escape from all the things that's suffocating my mind all this while.
I'll come home as soon as I feel much much better.

Sooooo you won't hear from me for long ehh...
Don't miss me yah hehehe =P *blush blush*

Aitee, goodnight world!
Assalamualaikummmmmm
;D

2010-07-10T23:00:00.002+08:00

Sometimes when you are always being nice, it's gonna get VERY boring.

Why not try something new?
Well it's not like I want to transform into an ulterior devil girl or what...
But I'm thinking if I could, one day, be firm and err be someone NOT me for a day.

Honestly, I'm thankful of what I have now.
But imperfection lies in all human's soul.
Maybe it's just my desire.
I think by the time I'm already ready to burst, I'd take a turn and change my mind.
Syafiqah will always and forever be fickle.
AS PER USUAL hehehe ^.^

Actually,the problem lies in me.
I am currently infatuating this childhood sweetheart.
But I would not have started all this bullshits if he doesn't ignite the flame, right?
Say Hehhh. :P

SO, right now I'm in this state of confusion.
The problem is I've always been those kind who'll NEVER ever express my feelings for real.
Maybe because experience taught me a lesson. lol.
And I've also always been the one who will relax-one-corner because I don't find the need to rush things and be in relationship whatsoever.
Only that, if I start to infatuate someone, I'll always end up feeling disgusted. Hahaha.
That's the weird thing about me.
Well uh not really la.
And another problem with me is, I find it very hard to communicate to malay guys in real life.
Especially to the one I infatuated.
We will always end up feeling awkward. O.o

Well any girls in my shoes? Gimme a HIGH FIVE buddy! :)

Hahaha well let's not stress things up..
Actually it has never been a crime to infatuate someone without expecting anything in return.
So why not, enjoy the chill thrill! WOOhoooo! :P

Okieee off to sleep now.
GoodnightZzzzZ.

2010-07-02T23:22:00.005+08:00

May peace be upon you. =)

"Sometimes.. I've always wanted to escape from this world for a while..
The world is too chaotic, I need serenity."

I've always wanted to watch the beautiful sunset at River Nile, Egypt.
I wish I wish I could finally get there..
It'd been very very very long since I last updated.
Too many events happening in my life but nehh really lazy to elaborate can? hehe.

Anyways, currently,
I'm dwindling my grandmother's cat whiskers. Hahaha too bored I guess.
Feel like chopping off the whiskers.. sooo long. hahaha oops..
kidding! =P

And oh,
one message for all-
So yeah, smile kay..
So that tonight you will dream sweet.
Heee.
I hope the next round it won't be a nightmare anymore, I hope it will be sweetdreams of you, and me. Wakakaaka mepek seh. -.-

Goodnight, sleep tight.

2010-06-15T00:59:00.002+08:00

Haha.. here's a picture of me and my cousin ika.
People used to say that our faces look alike..
And my friends in madrasah used to ask me if ika is my sister or what. hehe.

So yeah...
Now, tonight I can't really sleep.
I don't know why, too much things on my head I guess.
Uhuh Uhuh, I know the plan now..
I'm going to read my dusty twilight book again straight after this.
Only after reading twilight would I dream of something sweet.
I want sweetdreams tonight, no more nightmare pls..
heheh..

Remembering about those nightmare I had...
Oh god, think I'm missing someone now.
OOpsie.
*blush*

Although I might find it a little annoying sometimes, I still feel greatful it happened.
Although I'm confused and always seeking for an answer, I feel thankful that at least I have something to think about.
Although he might not be the most perfect man in the world, I'm glad that he knows he's imperfect.
Although I did not get anything I wanted, I got everything I needed.
I wish one day clarity would make us brave.

And I hope, this movie has a happy ending. :)

Why oh why can't I?

2010-06-14T19:15:00.002+08:00

I don't know but,
I think I maybe falling for you.
Hehehehe. oops. :P

2010-06-11T23:10:00.003+08:00

"kadang-kadang ALLAH sembunyikan matahari,
mendatangkan petir dan kilat,
kita tertanya-tanya kemana hilangnya matahari,
rupa-rupanya ALLAH memberi kita pelangi."
~ syuhaidah, syurga cinta

And there he came, and put off the huge storms for me.
It's like a miracle.
Thank you for cheering me up,
Thank you Mr rainbow.

But most of all, thank you Allah for everything,
everything that you've given me..
Love u Allah. :)

Now i add colours to my life.

2010-06-11T19:34:00.003+08:00

FIRST AND FOREMOST, IM SORRY CUZZIES BECAUSE IM SUCH A LOSER IN UPLOADING TONNES OF PICTURES.
anyways,
SELAMAT PENGANTIN BARU
to my only lovely sister and abg hairulashar! :)
and this picture is what depicts all.
Nah, not all...some at least. Happy moments I had. Thanks to my great cousins and beloved family.
And congrats kakak, u've finally found Mr Right! hehehh
and i hope you both will make great kids and family..
and of course, last till eternity yah! :)
I'll always be there to pray for you kak.
Like how u'd always pray for me.
Thanks alot kak for everything, I think you've done your responsibility well being a sister...
Be a good wife ok! hehe ;)
AND Oh no! I'm soon going to be an aunty haha! UNBELIEVABLE. o.O

So people, what do you get when you observe?
Just by observing, you get to know everything that have yet not to be expressed.
Expressing what you feel might be a disguise.
Never an expression in this world were true..
all were either hidden or twisted.
Trust me.

I have never expected everything to be this way.
I don't know why my heart melted for a stupid crocodile like you. heh.
But anyways, thanks alot for making my life worth of experiences.

"Inside I hope you know I'm dying
With my heart beside me
In shattered pieces that may never be replaced
And if I died right now you'd never be the same..."

ANYWAYS, HAPPY BIRTHDAY AYAH!
I LOVE YOUUU, I THINK. ;P HEHEHE LOVE LAH.
Will celebrate it with sis n abg hairul tmrw when they got back from mauritius.. ehehe! :P

Anyway, I have to move on ah.
seriously.
I've got to stop thinking about that crocodile because it's like waste of current you see.
hahaha waste of current u understand, buang current?
:(
Nah, cheer up syafiqah.
*hug self tightly*

2010-05-23T18:27:00.002+08:00

AWKWARD MOMENTS; i'm tired of it.
I decided to move on with the flow.
Whatever will be, will be.
BYE.

2010-05-19T02:19:00.006+08:00

YAY!
CICAK LOVES ME. hahahhaha. lol.
gila lu cicak.
Hmm.. Getting sleepier by days.

Zzzz.
cant believe i slept on the bus for real.
Like really sleep with dreams u know.
heehehehe.

I just can't wait to watch shrek forever n after! wohhoooo cnfirm syiok!
:P

Aite will update soon k! Tired ah.
Cause some lazybum said, if you are tired, u should sleep. <3
haha! lazybum!
ahahha. ok so let's try see if it works!
lol

!!!etindoog
~eracekat :)

2010-05-15T01:16:00.003+08:00

Wahahaha. ;D
Introducing.. MONYOK, my grandmother's cat.
She's a good girl ok, no bite, no scratch one. hehee
And I miss the one up there, kak we!
hahahaa.
Long time no see seh. Nevermind, one day ok...

Alright enough said.
I've never talked about school before right?
So yeah, at least I have a topic to share today.

School was ordinary to me although at certain points there would be ups and downs.
At a certain point of your life, you will realise that life shouldnt be always dull.
Laughters are really the best medicine.
That was how I kick away my problems and thoughts when I'm in school.
I'm always looking forward to see my classmates because they will never fail to make me laugh. =)

Projects and whatsoever.. I know it will be similar elsewhere that was why I'm enduring.
Look, don't ever say it's stressful in your course whatsoever: trying to compare..
It's typical nowadays... people trying to say that their course were a heartpain and that other people is fortunate bla2 to get into their course. And I hate all these people who LOVES to compare and contrast and assume that their course are more difficult whatsooeverrr. -.-

In my opinion, I feel that
EVERY poly student will face the same thing no matter what school, course you are in. So chill lah.. Be happy and sincere with what you do. Hehh. ;)

Anyways, this 20th september will be exactly 2 years since my granddad left me in this world.
And I miss him so badly, his advices, his warmth and laughter.
If only I could tell him how I felt now, and if only he could witness my sis's wedding ceremony... how great would it be.
It just feels incomplete now. Without him by our side.
Allah, please take care of him ok.

Nites.

2010-05-05T00:34:00.003+08:00

Waaaah. I have broken the record.

I'm finally, late for school after 16 years of schooling experience!
ceh. -.-
Nah, cause from kindergarten to secondary, my school was always nearby my house. hahaah.

Oh, yah.So,
I quickly ran from the bustop to my class.
By then, my lecturer looked at me like as if I've done nothing wrong.
Haha, I forgot I'm not in secondary school anymore.
Waste my energy running.

Anyways, met Naz, Nad, Sepols, Mitchelle and Azimah just now at starbucks.
Had a great time! :D

And oh, i miss this one.
I'm just at page 13 for goodness sake.
I'd better catch up!

till here.
Sleep tight. <3

I observed as I learn.

2010-04-26T22:08:00.003+08:00

Wait, before I start, school was fine though I began to hate those early bus trips with bacen people who loves to push people in the bus. Just this morning, I got annoyed by those number of people who are rather committed by the seats they could occupy.
What's on my head was, "chill lah, it's just the start of the day..so tired until cannot stand meh? sheesh. -.-"
Well correct me if I'm wrong.
And apologies for my one minute bimbo rant.
I just can't stand it lah sometimes.
Okay one minute over. ^.^

Haha.
Project project project.
Just as I thought I could finally breathe, I got stuffed again.

When I finally get to meet you, all the energy was gone.
Maybe it's just how Allah moved my heart. :)
Now, and never over.
GOODNIGHT MONSTAARS!

P.s: I saw prissy in school! arghhh! i miss her man.

Sehari di pondok piza wakakakk

2010-04-09T13:20:00.006+08:00

GOOD MORNING MERRY SUNSHINE! :)

Grand entrance ah.
Sorry eh perasan sikit letak gambar sendiri.. hahaha..lolz
But well, that's not the main topic for today...

I want to tell myself that
yesterday I had a great time with my kentals, gaga-guguing.
Feel like there's loads more to catch up on..
and nazurah....
you owe me an explanation with the army man huhh. hahaha.

But of course, meetups will never be perfect.
There'll be things that'll set you down, like time flying fast and we feel like we've spent little time with each other.
hehh yah... what to do kan.. haha...

Well, we went pizza hut to have our lunch there.
And here's naz... after 4 years of watching her grow in front of my eyes.
Nothing changed. Hidung tetap cool. :)
Kawan manerr tah ajar dia kembangkan hidung. hehehe.
Kembang kuncup kembang kuncup. Nose exercise.
Haha... she's the most coolest friend out of all of us.
She's very chilled and relaxed.. hahaa..
and of course there's lots more to elaborate about her, but nah.. let it be kept within me, myself and I.. hehhhehh.

This japan-not wannabe is super funny and violent pun ada jugak ah.
Inilah Noris marissa Watawashi Arashi.
hahaha..
If you really know her, you'll get to found out that actually she has loads of things to talk about.
Loads of crazy stuffs that she could just blab anytime that could make you crack till you pee in your pants.
muahahaha.
Trust me.

And this one....
Haiyoh.
hahahaha.
When she laughs, she'll never stop.
She'll only pause if she needs to collect her saliva back.
ok sorry, just joking kay.
She's crazy and VERY hyper.
Well just look at this picture..
only this picture is shaking.
Why??

Cause she's an ultimate laughing machine.

And here comes the fantabulous food of the day..
Jeng3....
After fulfilling our hunger, we start to
BURRRRP.
alhamdulillah.
hehehe..

So that's it for a crazy mealtime with my beloved ones.
Hope we all could make it on the 21st.
Ceh ceh.
:)
Happy schooling everyoneee~
K takecare.
Havefun..
Enjoy your day...
Have a nice day ahead..
Eh biler nak habis ni..
Okaylahh.. bye..
Don't forget to smile.
AH!
BYE LAAAAAA~ :)

And this is how it goes...

2010-04-06T02:20:00.004+08:00

Well people always say 6 of us look alike in a way.
If we do, tell me why.
Cause the fact is, we are cousins and will always be.
And nothing will seperate us except divine intervention.

And I really enjoyed this one.
Sing. Sing. Sing.
All hearts out.
haha!
Laughter is the best medicine.
Wooow I'm cured!

And guess what, my sis n dad just bought me a lappy.
For since my sis's lappy has a name called Biggy, I'll call my lappy err..
err...
errr.....
uh huh!!
Smally.
hahahaha. lol.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
And now it's already nearly 3 am...
and I'm still awake with smally.

With my phone kept on buzzing, and I refused to answer, with a cup of milo in front of me...
what a great night.
Let me induldge.
But wait...
something hasn't been going pretty well.

If my heart could answer whether is it empty right now, I would have asked.
I turned back my thoughts and looked at the flaws I made to you.
I apologise for my faults.
But if ignorance is what you choose, I think we'll remain as strangers.

Last night in msn you told me,
"I think all girls, women, females are the same.. Difficult to please and hard to conclude. If we could turn back time, and if you try to understand me better, we will still be together. "

If I don't understand you much, I would have still be with you.
It's because I've understood you too well, that was why we are not.
And I definitely have too much flaws other females don't. So how could we be the same?

And I'm wrong if I'm going to say that all men are jerks, egoistic and cowards.
Because it's just you whom I meant.

Just another lazy cat who doesnt want to smile for the camera!hehe

2010-03-06T21:45:00.006+08:00

!Haha Hello everyone. :)

Sorry for being M.I.A...
I was all in all clustered in a busy life now.
But it will end soon..hopefully.think positive. YAY!
Previously I was down with high fever which come and go and come again which lasted for like three months.

And till now, I havent fully recovered.
I always complain to myself that the weather is getting more humid nowadays.
And getting long MCs again and again is definitely the thing that I hate the most.
Plus, in the working world, MCs can really be a hazard.
But what can I do? It's not like I skipped medications like I used to. It's not like I pretend I'm sick.
Honestly, I'm really feeling stressed up for the past few months..
which is why I became hot tempered and easily agitated nowadays.

But heck yeah. I'm going to transform myself 360 degrees soon.
Think positive and just be happy.
Anyways, I just got my enrolment form for poly.
I got admitted into NYP, school of design.
Yeah.
I just hope everything will be fine for me.

And oh, brother hairul my sis just painted our walls rose white.
I mean my room now has transformed too.
From a yellow banana... to a pinkish white peach.
"Peel banana, peel peel banana."
haha, that's the song I thought my kids in kindergarten when we learn the word 'peel'.
Gosh.
Don't ever imagine how I sang it to them.
Really, very, ugly. haha! >.<

And I miss my babes lah.
It's like all of us tercampak here and there.
Nad and Naz in Tp, Noris in RP, Shai other school, and Im in NYP.
I just hope we'll have the time to meet. Insya allah can make it la k! think positive.

weee~ I'm meeting cicak tomorrow in madrasah..
Tell you what, she write veeeeeryyyy beautiful poems you know!
The other day she sent me this very nice poems..
and I really fell in love with her poem. hahaaa.
Very proud of you girl. :)
If only I end up with a guy who's poetic..
Which I don't think I will. hahaa.
You will always get what you don't prefer.
hmmm...So,must like those unlikeable. hehhh. :)

*YAWN*
Sleepy liao.hehh
Ciaosinci babes!
NYTENYTE.

2010-01-14T19:15:00.004+08:00

Hello Pees of the very P!

Hah. crap.

Well guess it'd been long ago since I updated.

Lotsa updates for today!!!

Nah. Exaggerating.

heheheee..

Firstly, my mind is 90 % clear right now..

My heart rate went down since last monday cause I'm finally over and done with O's!!!!

YEBADABADOOO!!! *party poppers* *pshewww*

Fulamak exaggerating. -.-

But nah, not very clear until the day I officially posted to the polytechnic I chose.

Insya allah, god's will.

But alhamdulillah, thank you allah for everything.

These miracle results won't be just because of my efforts, but particularly because of you.

Although it was not that perfect, but I'm thankful enough that it was just fine.

For the past three days, I was down with a high fever.

Really miss the kids in kindergarten..

What popped up in my mind was always the songs, and the laughters as well as the very-original-cute facial expression they will give me everytime they made a mistake..haha..

The day before we took our results was the day I had to work half day.

But it doesnt matter cause I get to meet the kids.. and get to spare my time playing around with them rather than sitting at home, feeling all tensed up and nervous for the results. But even so, that day was the day I learnt to treasure them more..

Before the start of the day, the senior teachers recited for us al fatihah and good luck for our O level results..

Later in the day, Teacher Tini asked the kids to recite for us, the teachers who are going to collect their results- al fatihah..

And when I observed at how spirited the kids recited, I was all at most touched.

I cried in awe cause I've never felt as touched before..Haha!

But a big thank you would never be enough.

What matters the most was the way the kids changed my life.

From the thought of quitting to the thought of staying there with them till the rest of my life.

2009-12-25T13:50:00.002+08:00

Cool eh?

Holaaaa peeps.

MERRY CHRISTMAS.

Finally I get to use Biggy. Thanks to my sister. :)

Anyways, I've thought about it. My friends had been asking me about facebook.

I used to delete my friendster, since I find it pointless. I thought facebook would be just as pointless. Nyaahhh.

So, I made a private account and I leave it empty without friends with an intention of: nak try-try jer..

Later, my friends added me and then... I have to accept their request.

SENANG CAKAP AH, now I've started using facebook, for real.

OkAY. UnbelievAble cause I've used to be those malas-nak-layan-this-kind-of-thing-sort.
hahaaa..

On the 17th dec....

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KAK WEEE

May allah bless you. Amin. :)

Soon.. it's gonna be my sis and mom's birthday

Both fall on the same day- 27th dec.

I'll always pray for their well-being and health.

May allah bless us as a whole family. amin. :)

Alriiight now I'm done.

I'll start my friends search in facebook soon.

hahahahha.

Goodbye. :)

P.s: D&G's lampeatrice latest is so cool. I fell in love with the smell. :)

Going M.I.A soon

2009-12-07T00:18:00.005+08:00

Hellooooooooooo! :)

Wow I've really missed viewing people's blog updates, talk to my babes... And of course.... watching cradleslippingme's videos... hahaha.. oops. :P

Well basically, I've got myself a place in a kindergarten as a part time trainee teacher...that's why I've been away for a week..haha.. I'm trying out for something new.. Hope I could make it through blissfully. God's will.

Loads of things happened to me within a week, really.

My last post sound kinda emo, but whatever, I don't want to sound pathetic anymore hahahh. Life has to go on as it is and I'll go wherever the cloud brings me.. :)

I'm happy being this way, being different and imperfect. O yeaahhhh~ =)

Currently it's 1am on the dot and I'm still wide awake..

exactly 9 more hours to the next tiringgg day. Blergh.

I just finished watching 'princess protection programme'.

Okay lah, quite nice..

Now I know why my little cousin nabilah have a huge ambition of being a princess.

The movies in disney channel really influenced children to be you know- the princess wannabe sort.. haha..

*chk chk chk*

Now I really have to sleep. But I can't.

Tomorrow still can watch some more movies in my sister's lappy which she named it biggy.

Such a nice name seh!! walampuik. hahahaaaa. :P

Oh ya! Tomorrow can't wait to watch my-version-'rush hour'.

People like really crazy ah rushing to mrt and some like taking bus.

I love to watch people in a rush to work. Hahah.

But I just can't stand it when some people close their nose when they saw a group of banglas boarding the bus in the morning..

Like as if those who close their nose smell sooo nice. -.-

please ah eh, insulting seh.

Banglas are human too, they don't deserve humiliation and discrimination okay...

Okaylahhh.. sorry if I offended those anti-banglas out there but it's just my opinion..

Maybe you had a traumatic incident with them? Then I can have no say.

Oh my god, why am I talking about banggalas now? -.-

Haiyo. Whatever lah fans of banglas ker, enemies of banglas ker...

Enjoy your sleep, rest well since it's gonna be monday blueees tomorrow!

hahaha..

byeeeee!

2009-11-30T10:17:00.005+08:00

Note to self: just breathe.

Heys.

Went out with sis hawa and fiq yesterday.

Had a great time.

Really, I owe a lot of thanks to both of them. Haha tak habes2..

And thanks to fiq for the kfc treat! yumms. :P

And to kak we, hope you'll really enjoooooy your 19th birthday which is coming soon.

Stay sweet and happy k. :)
Oh, btw I really enjoyed the part we are in supreme court for the design blahblah festival.

I reaaaaaallllllly have been wanting to go in there, and didnt get a chance to since it's always closed.

Tiba tiba semalam bukak! wah I'm so happy that I finally get to enter that prestigious place.

HEEehhhh.

Don't mind me, I'm always excited for some merepek(nonsensical) reason. haha. :)

Apparently, something rare happened to me yesterday.

Ain't gonna describe further.

It's a disappointment, nothing ironical or exciting. heh.

I don't even know why the heck I'm feeling this way.

Down down down down down.

Maybe I must learn to let go.

And believe that whatever I heard is not an apparition or dream.

It's reality and I know, I have to face it.

Maybe that girl who had put in loads and loads of efforts, shall deserve it, yeaah. :)

I'm chill with it.. haha..

I've never expect anything so far, it's tough to conclude why exactly I'm feeling this way.

Legs trembling, nerves gone crazily haywired, brain disfunctioned temporarily, tears waiting for the time to run out.

I felt that way throughout the day,I felt super disappointed and sad when I heard about it but I just keep it to myself. It's better that way. I hate to show how bad I felt. I hate to cry in front of people. It's very rare. So long I could control, I will.

Control control control.

Speech utterly distorted, don't know what am I saying most of the time. hah.

In my heart, I uttered prayers again and again.

I told myself to chill, chill and chill.

But one weird thing about me, I don't know how many things I've bottled up so far.

I've never ever confessed how I felt to anybody unless that person triggered. NEVER.

Cause that's not me. I take my feelings lightly and always think negatively of myself and the outcomes before I put my thoughts or feelings into words.

I'm not as brave as certain society. I'm not.

I controlled my tears until yesterday night after isyak, when it all burst out like water pipe when I was letting it all out to Allah s.w.t.

I know He knows me the best, I believe He listened.

For now,let me put it this way, I'm happy to see him happy with what he has, or who he likes.

I don't mind keeping my feelings to myself, since that is what I've been doing so far. I am much comfortable with this.

Love is all about heart, not force.

Nah nah nah, don't want to make it sound so cheesy. :)

Hahaha..

*hug myself*

cheer up! cheer up syafiqah!!!!! :D

2009-11-28T21:26:00.002+08:00

Haloooooo!

Picture above is adapted from my looklet.
This time, I picture a person who is very secretive and very mysterious. Haha..
Somewhat a stalker. kehkeh. :P

Talking about stalker, I still won't forget the incident I've went through in sec 2.
After sports carnival, me, shai, noris, nad and naz head down to punggol plaza.
Afterwhich, we took a free shuttle bus to Sengkang.
And thennn...
A man, aged around 30-40, kept on looking at shai.
Shai sat down and the man sat behind her.
Suddenly, the man started to use his hands to explore shai's body.
Shai felt uncomfortable I think, but I forgot what she did after that...
Haha. Sorry I'm quite forgetful, can't blame me.
But I remembered what we did once we alight.

Once we alight, the man followed us up the overhead bridge.
Time tu, mcm dah suspense ah semua orang... haha.
So, I followed my instincts and I think by taking a lift to 5th floor and then taking stairs to the 6th floor could help us to be less likely detected by that pervert.
From the sixth floor, we all spy on him from a small hole and we saw him looking and searching for us.

Wah, by then I really feel like a detective. B)

After that, the man slowly walk off as I think he's too tired already.
Too bad. :)
After that we quickly ran off to school. Haha.
We are safe! No injuries, nothing. :)
congrats. haha.
And everytime we talked about that, we will really laugh at how we all look like when we are panting, faces all pale like paper. Haha. I have to use paper, no other words to describe how pale we look like. :P

So, yeah.. it sounds like as if we are on a race or in adventure movies bla5.....
Okay before I become more and more crappy, I'd better stop and sleep. Haha..
Goodnight all.
God bless. :)

2009-11-27T23:46:00.002+08:00

HAHAHAHA~

HELOOOOOO BLOGGIES!

Okay I know the picture above is disgusting hahhaaa.. just trying out my sister's webcam via her newly bought vaio laptop! It was super amazing. I mean the laptop is woah-super-nice-lor! Sorry lah, I'm quite jakon in all this. Don't mind my attitude. :P

Time now is 11:52pm.

My sweet-lovely-adorable-cun melecun sister let me use her laptop for today. That was why I was super excited since it's quite rare for me to use laptops. Hehee.. :)
I was out the whole day since today is hari raya aidiladha..
I enjoyed myself, as per usual.. Haha..
I didn't get to capture any photos today since my sister decided not to bring any cameras...
Hari raya haji would be just like a typical occasion.. where food,food and food will be revolving around you all day.. hahaa.. getting bloated will be guaranteed. kehkeh. :P

I am really saving up..There's gonna be loads of stuffs I would want to buy just to pamper myself and my beloved family.
Camera, laptop, treat my whole family at carousel restaurant,gifts for mum and sis on their birthday,buy for fufu new snack foods, etc etc..
I thought of exploring times warehouse and getting myself a novel to read during the holidays... But nah, that would be another kaching issue. Blabs.

Oh the other day, I went to the rooftop in a hut in pasir ris mangrove swamp, the place where we nightwalk in sec 3 adventure camp..I went there with naz and we really love the place!
Although people say the place was quite scary, we actually enjoyed the calm and windy atmosphere there. We chilled and really enjoyed ourselves. Thanks nazurah for spending the time with me. Had a great time! haha :D

Andddddd.....
Time check: 12:50am
Wooowaaa.

My sister has already engaged herself in the world of wonderland.. kikiki.
Wah syiok ah! :)
It's going to be my turn soon..
My turn to wonderland, full of sunflowers,rainbows.. Woaah syiok ah! :)
Fairies and godmothers... woaaaaah syiok ah! :)

Okay hunks and babes all around the world, fasten your seatbelts and get ready to fly off to WONDERLAND! ;D
Rest well,sweetdreams, sleep tight.

May peace be upon you.

To nyai (although I know she won't be reading this): Thanks alot for the duit collection you gave me. Indeed, I must say for all the food and things you have prepared for us. Although sometimes you can be cranky, (oops :P) I still feel that you are the best grandmother in this whole wide universe and I really love you. hehehe.. :) *blush blush* Will always pray that life would be a bliss for you. Insya allah. Amin. :)

2009-11-26T19:30:00.002+08:00

Snobbish Star.

Made it all up like how I picture a wealthy bitch in front of me. Heehee. :)

2009-11-26T17:18:00.005+08:00

Firstly,

H E L L O W O R L D!!! :D

It's discouraging when you get to know that somebody ever bitched about you.

This morning, my sister came to me and told me that somebody in her workplace had gave her critics which are not meant to give a positive change. I believe, everyone who have already undergo puberty in this wide world faces criticisms, haters, buggers, psychoes, bitches, sluts etc..at least once. If I'm wrong, prove me so.

But life revolves around karma. I admit that I'm not an angel. So, if somebody were to bitch about me, I would accept it as parts and parcels of life although as a girl, dissatisfaction is always guaranteed.haha.. I've went through moments of depression, disappointment and embarassment.All because of the criticisms people put on me.

So,the ultimate sayings of the day would be,

"Embrace those who love you and whom you love,and rid yourself of those who will bring you down."

Yeah! That's the attitude! :)

Chiayok chiayok~

Today, I spent most of my time at home, preparing for Hari Raya Haji.

Since it's the eve of Aidiladha, I would like to wish all muslims a happy hari Raya aidiladha. Enjoy your day. :)

Oh, anyway!!!

Dynas mokhtar replied my tweet. haha.. I know it would be "whatever" to you, but it's a big deal for me okay. Haha,haha. :P

Some of you might not even know who she is. Haha..

But she's a famous malaysian actress. heeee! :)

Alright I'll update you more next time k!

Maybe about tomorrow's hari raya, god's will.

Till here baybehhh.

B Y E B Y E.

2009-11-23T23:05:00.003+08:00

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And it's because of you.
Why why why?

"Suara dengarkanlah aku, apa khabarnya pujaan hatiku, aku disini menunggunya, masih berharap di dalam hatinya..."
I T K E P T O N R E P E A T I N G I N M Y H E A D.

Your voice still lingers.
Oh man. I hate this part. :(
How??

2009-11-22T17:17:00.023+08:00

Let me begin with a loud hello.

H E L L O!!

too bad if you can't hear me. heheh. :)

I have no idea why I took this, I guess it was the time when my brain got screwed up.

Anyways, let me start with a huge WARNING! This is going to be the longest post ever in my blog world history. haha.

So here I go....

Firstly, this is shairah-and the bulging eyes of a lady from guiness world record.
Shairah the crazy girl.

Noris did an offence of:

1.) Tearing the page from the guiness world's record book.

2.) Stealing it from the library.

Hahahaha.. But who cares. It was very hilarious. All of us laughed at it and started wearing it as masks on our face, and I won't forget this moments when we laughed our ass out.

Noris criminal act brought some blessings in disguise.

Haha. :P

And this was another moments I missed.

The moments we camwhore since it's the last day of school for us.
I still can remember I-forgot-who's idea of making a tic tac toe in the middle of the parade floor.

Haha! It was never going to be another time I'm going to do that again. Sob.. :(

And taddaaa!

This was Hari Raya celebs this year.
These are the people I will never forget.

They are the people who loves to laugh laugh laugh just like me!

That's why going out with them were fun fun fun! :)

And I know some of us won't get to keep in touch after this year....

But I hope, we'll get to meet every year during raya..

If not, they'll totally be missed. :(

This is zakiah and me.

Okayla, background budget tapi meaningful tau. :)

I know I'll miss her someday but it's okay.. our homes are few steps away.

I can get through her any day.. hehee. :)

This is the three musketeers, the charlie's angels, the powerpuff girls. Haha!

My forever lovely babes who love to entertain me with their jokes.
We are the three malay girls in Sec 4F- and I love going to school because of them. :)

Gonna miss the times we were together in 4F.

ANDD.....

These are my original kental babes! :)

We call ourselves kental because we are really kentals I guess. Hahaha..

But they were the people who ever made memories so remarkable to me.
I'll miss them the most.
21st May will never be forgotten.
Will mark it on my calender. :)
They have actually open up my true self, and they have put on alot of effort in making me a person with more self confident, and we have been going through difficult times together.

P.s: Thanks thanks thanks alot again, for the great effort you all put in to make an album of us for me. Really appreciate it. :)

Yang ini, tak related lah... but since I passed through my files and saw this cute boy, I just upload it for fun. haha.
This is the cutest-woah-tak-bleh-angkat-seh baby boy. He's Nadir, Naz's younger brother. ^.^

Anyone interested? hahaa.

These people are also missed. :(

This was taken last year, during our work attachment in Mandarin Oriental Hotel in 2008..

At first, I thought I would be a loner since my other friends were not chosen but luckily, I bumped into these friendly humans. :)
They were really nice people and I really miss the moments when we worked together. Hehe..

Really enjoyable. ^^

Inilah budak budak kental sewaktu muda.

Haha.. zaman batu dulu..
Noris, nad, shai, naz and me in the retro years. :)

Haiya.. everyone like that lah when they were young..hehehe.

But if I were to show them this picture, they will surely laugh like crazy. hehe..

Noris and nad especially. xD

This is Kak hawa, the second person who knows me best!

First is my sister. hehe..

So yeah, she's the person who never stops advising me when I'm troubled, or when I lose directions. She's the ever very best cousin I had.

She's another replica of me cause we have similar attitude.
Know her well, she can be really cranky and funny.

And I'm gonna miss her too if she's going further studies in university soon.. sob sob. :(

Above is cicak, the person who knows me since zaman kuno.

Haha..

Since primary school I mean.. :)
It was miracle that we became bestfriends because I was her enemy in primary school. Haha.

Well, people love to stereotype you see..

takpe.. haha at least I know what is the meaning of BBSA now.. kekeke.

And I hope we will still be as close as now after graduation..

I will miss you so much. :)

And these pictures are taken during retreat 09 after the match.

It was the most fun thing in my entire secondary school life.

yes, retreat.. Not prom night hahaha. :P oops.

And pris, sinya and shirlia won't be forgotten too... :)

They were all nice and humble people I meet everyday.

I know I will miss them someday.

And above were the pictures of my maths class, and MISS EDWINA CHENG.

She's my favourite teacher.. haha.. But sadly, I didnt get to take a picture of her during grad night so this is the only pic I have with her.
And maths lessons were the only lessons I thought were interesting although initially, I used to hate maths alot.

Miss cheng taught me alot.. Not only maths, but about life.

And the class too were great people I've known although sometimes it's quite difficult for me to socialize.. hehe. But deep down inside, I actually love all of them, 4F and the teachers in CVSS..

awww...

hhahaha..

And that's it for now.. I know this is quite cheesy but it's alright to be cheesy once in a lifetime. hahaha.. :P

And the picture above was taken by my sister while I was sleeping. Haha.

I was really snoring like a pig by then.

So as it is going to be soon!

Haha.. Goodnight everybody!

Adios Amigos.

WARNING! [heavy post]

2009-11-21T14:30:00.005+08:00

H A P P Y F A C E S (:

GRADS! :D

hOLA!

Well initially I thought of doing a heavy post with lotsa picures, but I'm too lazy to upload all of them cause I won't want to take the trouble of resizing it. It's okay, let it be short and sweet this time.

Anyway, yesterday was graduation night. They call it prom night, but let me put it as graduation night. It sounds better. ^.^

RATE: 3.5/5 stars!

Overall, I seriously find myself like an idiot. Haha.

I didnt know how to dance so what I did was just standing there, clapping my hands.

It's okay, I'm fine with it. But shai,nad, naz and noris were like asking me to dance.

"MOVE YOUR BODY LAHH!"

I laughed.

Chaotic ah everybody. Some like pakcik mabuk dekat kelab dangdut, some like really enjoying themselves. In other words, yesterday seemed like a free entrance to a club.

But there, I see everyone's true colours. Haha. Now then I know......hehe. sheesh must keep it to myself! :)

Naz and the other malay friends were on the stage.. so left only me, shai and nad on the floor. After 40 minutes or so, noris and shai were tired. So, we settled ourselves down and chatted for a while before the whole celebration ended. AND..... I'm OFFICIALLY OUT!!!

YAYYYYYY~~~~~~~ I'm going to the next new phase of life. Insya allah, I hope my next phase of life will be a bliss for me. :)

NEXT...

TADAAA~

Here's my beloved zakikikikiah. :)

We went job hunting and exhausted..

My mistake- Everytime I have to meet zakiah, there must be something that held me back and I'm LATE. So, again sorry zakiah... :(

After that, we got two jobs:

Guardian in citylink mall and iman kindergarten.

Yet to choose..

My parents asked me to accept iman's offer....They really want me to work there..

Zakiah thought the pay was quite small.

So, end up we went on our seperate ways...

I felt guilty till now cause she doesnt have any job.

I wanted to reject iman, and search another job which me and zakiah together prefer and be accepted.....but she said she felt better at home and money, parents would be the next issue.. So yeah... :(

But now I'm asking nazurah's uncle via nazurah for any vacancy in cotton on for zakiah..

If there are, I would give it to her and cicak too! :)

Insya allah. We cannot putus asaaaa!!!!

Haiz.

But again, I'm really sorry. I know, if I were you, I would feel pissed too.

Overall, the job hunting day actually made me realised that zakiah is really hilarious and such a nice friend and I love her sooooo much. hehehee... :P

So yeaaaaa...

That's the happening things for me in November I guess..

Till here..

May peace be upon you.

2009-11-14T17:36:00.003+08:00

SCREEEEAAAAM!

Wowaaaa!

Finally I'm blogging after months of being m.i.a. -.-
Today I'm trying my best to relax my mind and focus on making myself happy.
Hahaaa. I know it's weird.
But really, it's very rare for me to treasure myself previously.
So, I thought chocolates would be the best remedy to relax my mind.
It's like a therapy for my brain.
Well, unfortunately, it only works momentarily.

Sometimes I wonder why I always ended up choosing something pink.
Be it blogskins, stationaries, bags, dresses blah3..
Honestly, I don't quite prefer that colour although yeah, I should actually LOVE it since I'm a girl. Okayy okayyy!!! any objections, just keep it to yourself. hahaaa. I know if I were to say this to any of my friends, they'll be really protesting and end up arguing. ahhaha
But I'm just fated with pink, really really.

So, I've made this pink autumn dress on my model, and I call her Miss Bloombastic cause she really look beautiful.
Have a glance on this:yes, I've spent my time doing this and some other dresses on looklet.
Hahaa! I've always had fun doing this.
You can click here: http://looklet.com/user/173105 to check out all the styles I've put on my models.
Afterall, it's just a game.
You can sign up, and enjoy it too!! :D
But don't forget to add me up there alrights? hahaa.

Alrighhhtss. Till here baybehhh.
I'm off to looklet~~~~~~

My type of guy

2009-10-12T10:50:00.002+08:00

Tagged by hazzeeq.
Hahaaa.. im so not used to revealing all these, but since I'm forced *ehem* let me repeat eh, forced to do so, so I have to do so. hahaa. There was 50 questions initially, but I skipped some of it. heh. Ok, go! =D

1. Do you need him/her to be good looking?
Moderately nice to look at. (:

2. Smart?
Uhm..... smart is not an issue, so long he's hardworking!

3. Preferred age?
Same,or older by one, two, three, four, five years.

4. Preferred height?
Same, or taller.

5. How about sense of humor?
Yes, a must-have. haha..

6. How about piercings?
Nah.. I go for good boys. (:

7. Accepts you for who you are?
Yeaaah..

8. Pink hair?
*gulp* You think? ahahaa..

9. Mushy or no?
Mushy at the right time..

10. Thin or fat?
Thin or fat doesnt matter, really. Just so long he's nice to look at. hahaa...

11. Black, Brown or White (skin color)?
Tanned. In the choice? hahaa.

12. Long hair or short hair?
Short hair is preferred. LOng hair like emo lah. Tak best. (:

14. Smells good?
Yes!! 24/7. :D

15. Smoker?
I don't really mind, so long he's financially stable and smells goooood all the waay. hahaaa.

16. Drinker?
No.

17. Girl/Boy-next-door type?
Yeaahh.. Simple people. (:

18. Muscular?
Hahaa.. Muscular no, fit yes.

20. Plays bass and/or acoustic guitar?
Yes, so we can share the same interest in guitars and having a fun time playing guitar together. (:

22. Sings very good?
Nah, I don't really mind about that.

23. Vain?
Not to an extreme.

24. With glasses?
hahaa yeah, find them cute. (:

25. With braces?
No. keke

26. Shy type?
Not tooooooo shy can already. but still must b a biit shy.

27. Rebel or good boy/girl?
Good boy. haha

31. stunner?
Haha.. doesnt really matter. Sometimes a stunner looks cute.

33. Earrings?
No.

34. Mr/Ms. count-my-ex-girlfriends-until-you-drop?
Haahaaa... No. That can simply shows how unfaithful he can be. huaahaa.

35. Dimples?
Yes. It's just a plus point. kalau takde pun okay. :)

36. Bookworm?
Very rare catch.. but not to the extreme can lah..

37. Mr/Ms. love letter?
Hahaaaa... yea, that's quite sweet actually.

39. Flirt?
Hahaaa... no. Be original. (:

40. Poem writer?
Hahaa.. sounds like a lelaki-melayu-terakhir sort eh? can laa..

41.serious?
yes, at the right time.

43. Painter?
Wow! A bonus! It would be good if he could offer a helping hand to paint my walls.. hahaa. :P jkjk

44. Religious?
yes, so he can guide me to heaven. ceyyy mcm phm. :P

45. Someone who likes to tease people?
err... No.

46. Computer games geek? Or internet freak?
Neither nor.

47. Speaks 20 languages?
Wow! Bonus plus points..

48. Loyal or faithful?
Both must laaa..

50. loves children?
YES! Must must must...

Okaaaaayy... finally completed the survey. hahaa. :D
Byeeeee!

2009-10-07T20:59:00.002+08:00

Well wow.

that was my father's spectacles which he already used for 8 years and it is still alive!

Only that that spectacle is handicapped with only a hand.

Well, in other words.. dah patah lah. -.-

hehee.

And oh, sth rly surprised me today.

Today is the day full of surprises for me- some are good and some are bad.

Idk if what I did was right yesterday night..

Initially, i wanted things to go smooth for us, but it did not. So I just laughed it off and thought that something better could cheered me up and yes, this morning something nice to see really happened to me.

It was indeed the first experience in my life although it's of no big issue. haaah.

My composition was chosen. yeaah let me not further elaborate or if not it will sound boasting.

Sometimes, I just feel unwanted by a certain society. Idk if it was my face or my attitude which sucks, but people tend to stereotype me. That's what I hate the most. But fortunately, that society refers to the minority. I know I still have people who really loves me,so I must be strong and optimist! :)

I promise to myself, that whatever it takes, I won't criticize myself anymore. I must start to love myself. heh.

Anywayyy, from today until the end of my examinations, I'm just going to update small little pieces, but that won't be regular. I'm sorry I can't help it.

And, I havent had the time to apologise for raya..

so, to those who has probably been intimidated or one of who i have blabbed about, bitched about, im sorry. And, I beg you to certify halal to all the food and drinks you treat me, cook for me blah5... and i know a sorry is just momentarily because tomorrow, i might do it again. haha.

Alright, till here. Nytes!

Raya Raya update! :D

2009-10-07T19:54:00.007+08:00

I wanted to upload pictures of raya from my digital camera but all were "file error".
I'm totally devastated cause the only pics I can upload were from my lousy phone camera.
But at least, this lousy camera jugak yang berguna. haiyaa.
Anyway, from my phone camera there's only this...
My raya outing on saturday with my besties. (:

wah.. rly rly bad quality.. tsk. :'(

there's tooootally lots more.. But haiyaaaaaaa!

I'll try to fix my computer and all the file errors.

Anyway, my computer really have an attitude problem, you know. heeh. >.<

2009-10-05T23:10:00.002+08:00

Dear diary,

I just don't feel right tonight.
I need to prioritise my time because for now, I studied for less than 3 hours and haven't been actively involved in family-oriented activities.
I just realised O levels is 3 weeks from now. And I don't know why it seemed so tough for me. I'm still sane though part of me is turning insane.

Anyway, last saturday was the most best raya I had with my hunks and babes. Really. But after everything ended, that night I sat on my bed and I kinda imagine my life without them around me. Sooner or later, all of us will be on our seperate ways. But I really hope we won't be seperated. Like what we planned, to meet once every two months.. I really hope that happened. I just could feel how much I really love them as my friends now and how essential they were to me. Hah, but let's not elaborate that much. Pictures were on my phone but I'm feeling so crapped up to even upload it on my computer. I know, you've never seen such a lazy monger like me. hahaaa. :P

Another month more and I'm finally out of that school. It's what I've always wished for, but as it comes nearer, I just don't feel like I want it anymore. It's not that I wanted to trash my future away, but I just realised how much I would miss my friends later.

And then part of me still brought me back to my reminisce. I just missed those moments when I'm with dee. It was the last ramadan and syawal when he actually completed my life. But this syawal, my friends and family were the completion. But I realised we're just not fated to be. Since every hello ends with a goodbye. (:

well that's it.. goodnight.

Open house.

2009-08-04T20:57:00.001+08:00

Grand opening, grand opening.
hehhee..

assalamualaikum people.
May peace be upon you. ceywah. :P

Firstly, I apologise for the very long absence in blogging..and to keep my blog private while I' m away..
Sorry to those people who asked me about my condition via email since a month ago. hahaa. Glad that you all keep in touch with me and even bothered to ask if I'm fine..hehe (:
Kalau nak tau, I'm fine je.. :D
Thanks for the concern k...

Secondly, wa sudah tua beb.
heheeeee.
Walaupun sudah sebulan birthday berlalu, ada lagi check in, mengucap dan memberi belated birthday present. terima kasih semuanya.. wawawa..
And yea, I had a great birthday last month.. alhamdulillah.Thanks to all k.. (:

Thirdly, ada cerita nak bilang niiiiii.. hehee.
That day I went to watch a movie. Just recently.
Then, when I was about to step out from the cinema, I saw a group of makciks aged 50+..
One of the makcik approach me.

Makcik one: Dik, boleh tanya sikit tak?

Me: ah,ye. (Sambil tersengih sengih)

Makcik one: Dik tau tak macam mana nak beli popcorn?

Me: Kat situ, dekat je..

Makcik two: Ah takpe lah insert name here, kasi die duit je, suruh die belikan..

Makcik one: (handed me fifty bucks, i repeat eh.. fifty bucks..) Belikan cik boleh? show cik dah nak start ni. (terror jgk makcik ni.. eheehe :P)

Me: (handed her the popcorn and the balance) Cik...

Makcik one: Takpalah, belen kau simpan je.. cik bagi ikhlas sebab kau tolong cik tadi belikan popcorn.

Me: takpelah cik.. takpe..

Makcik one: Takpe amek je..

And in the end, she just walked away into the cinema.
Man, oh man.. felt so guilty till now.
There's alot of balance left. $40 balanced seh.
Wow oh wow. Adakah ini dinamakan rezeki? ceh ceh ceh.
hahahaha. :P

But I wished I could say at least "terima kasih" before she walks off..
Takpelah.. next time perhaps if we meet on the streets? hehehe...

Kay lah.. till here je lah k..
I'm soooo sleepy already.
Kalau ada masa, I'll post in again k..

Goodnight semua. :D

2009-06-13T19:33:00.004+08:00

Lake by the side. (:
Happy feets. ;)
*Growl*
See the heart shape cloud?? heee.
The birthday star. Our Norishi Arashi dearest. ;)
Oh yes! This is the professional photographer here, beside me. hahaa.

psst: should be honoured,you know. haha. :P

Haha. Precisely, I didn't post in yesterday when i got home. Firstly, I was having a tremendous head spin. So,I went to sleep. Apologies for those who waited and even ring me up to ask, "Syaf,bile nk post in??" haha. Apologies,pardon me.

Well basically, the pictures above could just depict how lovely the scenery were behind us and that the lake by the riverside were our favourite spot now. haha. ;) 10th june 09. In commemoration of Norishi Arashi's birthday celebs,we went there. Anyway, I thought of posting some birthday wish for her here,but for a second I thought that it's okay...she wouldn't be able to read about it, so forget it. ;)

But oh well. I think... I'll just post something about her here. *grins =)

Firstly, happy sweet 16 noris marissa sazili. To those who knows her by far,you might give a thought that she is a fierce and a violent lady. Well, some even thought that she's a snob. But my thoughts of her were one of a kind cause I thought that she's a soft hearted girl who has a sensitive heart. To know her deeper was an honour. Because she's someone who could bombard you with sensitive issues. Trust me, I've been with her for almost 10 years and I always feel inferior. But on top of that, she has a kind heart. She's the best person you could seek advice from because she's a straight forward lady and never will be on your side if she thinks that you are the one at fault. Next, I wish and I'll always pray for you that you will live happily and blissfully, and that Allah will always protect you and love you babe!

I love you noris. Deep down, from the very very very bottom of my heart. ;)

The best thing was to dip our feets inside the muddy lake illegally. Some moronic creature even have the idea of walking into the middle of the lake an taking pictures there. haha. Crazy idea, I tell you. But overall, it was awesome. And again, I love you all. ;D

Todaaaaayyy

Parents went mustaffa centre and asked me along but I refused. Heck,I don't find anything interesting out there. But not really, I'm just too tired lah. Sometimes I wonder why I got tired. Nowadays, I find myself getting crankier. Like really merepek you know. :(

I guess what ganeshaspeaks wrote about cancerians like me were true. Cancers have moodswings,and tend to be cranky. What an insult. Hahaa. But it's true somehow. Can't deny it. Pfft. ;)

FINALLY it's the one week holiday I'm always waiting for. Weeee. I'm happy. :D Actually, I thought of going out and shop with cicak today but we cancelled the plan due to financial difficulties. bahaaa! Make it sound so problematic. ;P But cicak already booked me on the 26th,which is one day before my birthday and wanted to date me on that day. heh heh. :P So change of plans. Instead of today,we make it on the 26th. *wide smile*

Well, cicak have acquired this crazy-shopping-for-perfume syndrome from me. hahaha. I guess I'm influencing a lot of people already. Even my cousin sister,sis hawa was addicted with perfumes since I introduce her to perfume shops. hahaha. But tell you this: I have this insanely weird hobby of collecting perfumes. But obviously it's not for show. I'm not a braggard,bustard. But yea.. I just love perfumes cause I really HATE it with caps lock on for hate, when I stink cause if I stink, I'll be sulking and will NOT be in the mood throughout the day.

Don't talk about me when I'm in pimary school lar cause those days I'm really kental and don't even bother about personal grooming. Blah. And I'm too alim to be true when I'm in primary school. Oh well. Rosliana always tell me this, "Eh kos..(she calls me tikos. -.-)aku tengok kau dah tak se-menyampah time kau primary school eh?" And there she go with her bimboitic laughters. hahahaa. jkjk.

And I will look at her boldly and say, "Kau diam eh!" And then I will smack her from the back.

And some people called me the BBSA. haaa. Kesian kita. :(

But that was what amsyar told me too. He said that I'm a snob in my primary days.Hahahaa. And now, we are close friends,when I don't even talk to him during my primary school days. hahaaa.

But I can't deny it cause I really hate myself when I'm in the range of primary 3 to primary six. Totally kental. And I used to be one of the cry babies in school. But now, not anymore. Hahaa. Rarely cry.. But why? I guess 4 years is already enough to make me a more independent, matured lady. Cey! Don't choke ah! hahaha.

Woo. :D I guess I'm gonna stop right here cause I don't think anyone has reach up to here. Hahaa. Panjang giler sehh.

2009-06-11T11:19:00.002+08:00

Intensive break.
Gawwd. I'm still stucked here in the computer lab doing my F&N coursework.
But I'm 99% done.
Yeaah! :)

And will have a break later on..
Thumbs up for myojo maggi mee. ;D
We had it for almost two weeks already.

Hoohaa~
Will post in when I get home kaay peeps. (:
take a break.

Groggy

2009-06-08T13:56:00.003+08:00

"She's cheer captain and I'm on the bleachers..."
Groggy. -.-"

By The Way,
Hey!
Have you ever dreamt of something so real that you could even sense everything when the dream was going on? I know it's awkward,but it was just SO WONDERFUL that I wish I didn't wake up from that dream.
I think I've met the one. The 99% my-dream-guy. But it was irrational, I know it's illogical for me to meet someone in a dream. Haahaa.
But he's the one. He's the guy I've been searching for, everything is just in him.
Except for one-he's fair. (To the fact that I prefer tanned guys. ;D )
That's why I say 99% but not 100%.
I wish I get to know him in reality.
Hmmmm....
Okay, sorry. Kinda exaggerating here. Don't puke okay. hahaaa. ;)

Well. Well. Well.
I kind of miss shaking my legs on a comfy sofa and all, you know..
Eating super rings and catch 11am drama mamas.
But heck. Have to concentrate and stay focus cause there's only FOUR months left.
And I think I have to really maximize the use of having intensive.
But chocolates will help me, so chill.... ;)

And I just read something under extras on rosliana's blog.
It kinda touched my heart.
Hehe.
Thanks babe,I really appreciate it.
And yea, I love you alot. :D

Well,since she wrote something about me, I should say something about her here...
Let's follow her format. Hahaha.

ROSLIANA BTE ROSLAN.
Super sweet and funny. She's the one who will light up my sparkling smile when I'm moody. She's the friend who sacrificed a lot for a friend. She care, she wound,she heal.
She's humble,and never ever boast about whatever she do-and this is the thing I loved about her the most. But don't get near her if she's angry cause she could smack you or even pull out your teeth if you tried to make a joke out of it. eheeehee. She loves to warn me this, "Eh! Kau diam eh,kalau tak gigi kau aku cabut!". hahahaa.
And yes, we have been friends for 12-13 years, and still..
I hope it will lasts long. (:
And I love nurroslianabteroslan a.k.a cicak bangau. (:

Anyways, i went out with Kak We on sunday and spent time singing and playing guitar,with Naz on saturday.
I had fun and a great time on both days.
I really love both of them and these two people were essential.
hahaha..
And both of them are just like my real sister- the ones who will be there to listen attentively to my problems, and tell me to do what is right or what is wrong.

And then, just this morning,went to eat breakfats with Noris and Nad.
I had a great time too. (:
Haha, except for the unhygienic stallholder who used his hands to take cucumbers and carrots and put it on our plate! eew.

Me: "Eh! Noris, dier pakai tangan die amek timun dengan carrot ah.." *whisper*
Noris: "Oi! Asl kau bilang aku?!!! Kan tengok ah aku dah tak selera." *whisper*
Me: "Hheehe. Sorry ah. Tak sengaja.Takpe lah, makan je." *whisper*
Noris: "isshh. Tangan die berbulu ah.. aku takut nk makan ah! ahhahaa."
Me: *Laugh**Laugh**Laugh* "Alah.. da lapar,sumbat je lah."

Then we laughed and the indian guy sardine-ly looked at us and smiled.
*faints*
hahahaha.

Well? O.o
But of course, these two people never failed to crack me up.
And they were too, the essential people in my life.
And that I really love them both too, hell loads. hahhaaa.
Okay, oh-my.. since when my blog turned to be lovey-dovey? ahaaaa..

And to firdaus and hidir, I'm rly sorry cause the best is just to put the words bluntly.
Because I know if I'm going to say something that add hope for both of you, I know it'll hurt you both more. But honestly,both of you were very sweet and nice people, and nothing is wrong with both of you but it's just me. If I really want to commit in a relationship, I would want to be sincere. And again, I'm sorry. :(

2009-06-04T10:58:00.003+08:00

Woow.
I woke up late today. Haa.
Was too tired the previous night.
But yea, I managed to wake up before the lesson ended.
Get what I mean?
It's intensive lessons in school, *yawn*

There will be alot of events happening within this month.
First will be noris's birthday.
Unfortunately,we couldnt celebrate cause her parents did not allow her cause of her results.

Alright, I'm in my Fnn computer lab.
I'll blog more once I reached home kaay. (:

Cik kiah

2009-05-30T09:53:00.004+08:00

Good morning world! :D

Baboon sawan(eheehe :P) asked me to blog in.

So yea. (:

Now let's start with some beautiful proverbs;

" The talent for being happy is liking and appreciating what you have instead of what you don't have." - Woodrow Wilson

Last wednesday was the most horrible-st day ever in 2009.

TBD. The Bad Day.

Had a tiff with sis and dad.

Bleargh.

-----

Thanks to my sweet friends who came down to console me.

and to this friend especially,who knows that chocolate could regain my mood, and get me two van houtens. Omg, thanks alot.It really works. After that my mood went fine. (:

Oh my.

The wind this morning is really scary la adoi.

My mom's vase in the hall fell and broke because of the wind.

Naughty wind.

And two of my bedroom doors went shutting itself by its own, with a loud BOOM!

Omg, scary.

Anyway, I had a horrible mid year results.

And I failed most of my subjects.

Like hoohas.

And lotsa harsh comments were lingering on my head, passing through the cell membranes of my brain cells,brain getting ready to explode- pushing me down and demoralising myself.

But haaaaa. This is life.

have to endure.

Perseverance is the key beb! (:

*roll eyes*

Kay whatever. ><

I just hope there would be some magic dust(oh my this sounds like a sweet candy that plops in a stupid powder or whatsoever),a miracle or a mother godfairy who will help me in my second prelims. Haa. yea right. -.-"

I'm feeling a little hungry.

I hope mom will buy waffles for me.

Slurp~

Okay till here then.

Bye. (:

Cik Bibah.

2009-05-29T20:24:00.005+08:00

Nah. Don't say it anymore.

Tired of "FINALLY-S"

hahaha.

Yes... finally I'm blogging again.

OMG, i've just said it~

hahaa.

Okay okay.

Next monday will be MT O levels ayye.

All the best for all O level candidates yea.

And to you too, syafi*. :)

Haaahaa.

Had a hot fudge sundae on friday.

Wow!

Really improves my taste buds.

Slurps~

Sedap nyaaa!

Well,uh. It'd been centuries since I've had my last ice cream,you know?

I know you don't know. -.-

Uh uh. I'm exaggerating laaa. (:

Alright, cut it off.

I skipped malay ASP today. -.-

I mean, it's okay I guess.

haah.

Well, just as I realised, it was going to be 9pm soon.

And I just woke up from a nice,wonderful nap.
I know, yes I do..

STOP! before you even say a word.

Let me admit this myself:

Yes, I have a lazy ass that can't sit,but sleep.
Thanks for the compliment. It's so nice of you.

hahaaaa. (:

My mom have been telling me that I've been like a swine*ouch, a nicer word* these few days.

Wth. -.-

But of course she didnt scold vulgar la.

She pointed out to this swine show on TV and tell me that those swine are my friends.

Wow. O.o

"Cause when I'm with him, I am thinking of you."

Haah. So true. :)

Bye.

2009-05-22T15:16:00.001+08:00

.....

Tired.
Malay intensive program.
Malay lessons all e way.... from the start till e end.

tsk tsk tsk. :(

:D

2009-05-21T17:10:00.011+08:00

Re: Us. (:

Re: "Happy Birthday to you, happy birthday to you~" Nazurah is 16 now! too bad.. ehehe.

Re: Noris, Nad, Naz. N cube.

Re: Kaay. Posers tak menjadyk ah kan~ :P

Re: Weeee~ On the way and on the place. Get it? haaaaha.

Re: Omg, love naz's straight set of teeth! hehehe. It's REALLY STRAIGHT. :)

Re: Noris! >.<

Re: One similarity- Nadiah and Noris. The Ns you see. (Whatever.-.-) hehee

Okay... First, let me say this..
HAPPY sweet 16 NAZURAH!

Nazurah is an optimist. She's faaaar way better than what you could think of her.
Get to know her better,cause only idiotics will call her a snob. Know why?
She smiles at most 2/3 per day. So, yea. how could a snob smile so much right?
She's a real nice person, if you get to know her deep inside.
A very nice friend indeed.
She has just one unique personality, and that she is musically talented.
She is humorous. But one thing that made us all similar is that,
we are a crazy and talkative bunch of people,only after you get to know us better. (:

To nazurah:
Babe, happy 16th kay.Be it you are 16 or still 15, it doesnt matter because you are still the nazurah I know since I'm 13. And of course, I'll always pray for you that you will have the best things in life, and that you will succeed in the future endavour. And...of course,more of what I want to say will be in the card I gave it to you! So do READ. hehee..
Lastly, I LOVE YOU A LOT babe! (: Enjoy yea.

SO TODAY

Nad, Noris, me and Naz went to celebrate Naz's birthday at anchorvale CC,then head down to the riverside park.
It's very very enjoyable and that I would never forget today because it is the most remarkable day that ever happened to me in 2009. And I know, that this day won't be the best day without you babes around. (: Really appreciate it.
Shai wasn't there..... She had her art paper which laste one hour later. So yea..

We took a lot of videos but yea, someone disallow the publishing of videos, so I guess it's privacy. ahahaha.Too bad.. So, we catch breakfast at macdee and the place is huge with little people, so it's gerek ah. (: Then, talk talk talk crap.. and then gave nazurah the prezzies. hehe.

But the best part was the riverside..
We climbed uphill, and then lepaked on the small house.
They made a video there. Really funny.
I'll laugh non-stop whenever I watched it. (:
With nazurah rolling down the slope, singing a teletubbies song...and us acting like monkeys.
And them calling me the "ketua kampung of the riverside".
Kurangaja eh. hahaha.

And then, we screamed on the hill. Wow. That's the most gerek part.
I was so tensed up with examinations, and after the scream, I felt so enlightened.
hehehe. No one hears us cause we are the only one there. ^.^

So yeaaaa... then we are thirsty, so we went back to anch. CC, and get some drinks in 7 eleven.
Sat at 7 eleven and chatted some more.At 1.45, noris have to go. She had a curfew. Sad sad sad.
:(

So, left me naz and nad. We chatted for some while and then off to the toilet and homed.
Sat with Naz for a while while she was waiting for her bus.

Nazurah: "Eh,thanks eh for everything.. Tadi korang kasi aku yang folio yang banyak pictures of us tu, aku mcm nak nanges sey. hahaa.Tapi aku tahan sebab aku maner nk nanges depan org kan.. hehe. Thanks alot eh for today."

And then, we sort of message conference when homed.
Ahahaha.

I texted them, "Hey my babes! Hahaha..well, let me tell u guys tat i rly enjoy my day tday..and tat u guys cnt stop making me laugh...alright,let me take tiz opp to tell u guys tat I LOVE YOU BABES TO THE CORE! eheehee. n i rly appreciate it.. Yea, I knw it's awkward 4 me to say ths kind of tings..Sry to make it sound disgusting.. hahaha."

Nazurah replied, "Omg! Im the one who should really thank you guys so much for the sweet and rocking presents,for your efforts in them.. YOU GUYS ARE THE BEST!! I can't thank you guys enough for today and all of it! i love ya'll so much!!! :D "

Noris replied, "Ya just nw was realli enjoyable! very funny cos i was watching the videos again and again.. thnx for the happy memories that we had just created just now! I love you guys alot! reali reali enjoyable! The best thing tht i've done in 2009! haha! glad u guys had fun too!"

Nad replied, "Ape ni? Conference via sms? Hmm. kalau gitu,ii also wanna thank you all for making the effort to make this day part of my memory..It would be something that ii would remember for a long long time. And ii hope, forever... Next time when we're older, maybe we can look at the photos and laugh together.... Love you all..."

Omg... it's really sweet of you guys.
Although I can't predict the future, I felt that I've finally found my true friends after so many seperations and conflicts I've went through with my previous bestfriend.
And I know this, because I could feel the love that is building up for you all.
And you babes, are part of all of them. (:

( ♥ Naz Noris Nad Shai Rosliana Nurlinah)

And I wish, no matter where we are going... I want all of you to still be there, creating more enjoyful memories in my life but not be seperated after you've found your own friends k..?

:D

2009-05-17T06:53:00.004+08:00

There... The sudden urge of editing my photos. hahaa.
Work-less.

Today is sunday.
God. Hate it.
Especially when the important people were not around with me today.Man, I feel like crying.Mum,dad and sis went out as early at 0600 hours.And I woke up at 0643hours, just as I realise no one was at home except for me and bro.
Then, cicak messaged me, telling me she could not attend madrasah. :(
It's okaaaaay.
Guess today is the day I'm tested. :/

Gahhh.

Next was, I was considering of donating my blood.
But HSA was quite far eh?
I am still thinking.
I hope I'd have the strength to carry on.
hahahaa~ sounds dramatic eh? :P

Well, english,maths, science,socialstudies,history paper was over.
It was, difficult. -.-"
But, uh.. hope I could at least attain a pass.
For maths especially.
heck. Who would want to go those intensive remedials?
But I know, I would be in.
So, jangan banyak cakap eh~ ehehehee.

Next, I must keep on reminding myself that I can do it!
Yessssssssss!
Few more papers to go.
And prelims will be over. yay! :)
Yet to think about the upcoming pre-s and O's.
Bleah.

Next HUGE burden will be my O's.

So,yea...
Cao sin ci~
:D

2009-05-12T21:32:00.003+08:00

"Sheila shishi at a sushi shop.

She shisha at a shisha shop.

Sheila shishi and eat sushi.

So,she happy."

Try those. It's a tongue twister. hehehe. Created by us three. But,no offence to any shila's around hor. It's just a fiction.

So yea, my msn lagged and went offline but could not retrieve and reconnect back in the middle of my convo with my bestguyfriend.

So, he told me that he confessed to the girl he liked and all.

Haha. But the girl didnt respond.

yea, that's sad.. ):

But for a 18-year-old guy, he should have handled it well. (:

Well, it's nice to have him around yea.

He's like my second brother. But, wth.. -.-"

We can't talk for long.

It's my msn, fault.

Oh-my.

sry, brother. If you came to pass by my blog now, i want to tell you that

I'm rly sry for ending the convo just like that.

Right, next was, I saw khairulamsyar's personalmessage and I laughed like crazy.

" If I fail my english papaer, it will be Lee Kuan Yew's fault."

Hahahahaa. Omg.

kay, this is not a discrimination or whatsoever, don't get it wrong..

It's because our prelim paper was all about lee kuan yew and it's difficult to attempt..

so,yea..

Kesian kan lee kuan yew. Tak bersalah.. chk chk chk.

haha, so yea..

Now I feel that everything happened with a reason.

And I'm too tired to care about anything now.

Stay happy,girl. (:

All the best for your prelims, you must be confident! You go syafiqah! :D

Goodnight.

Wooo. Kau membuatku tidur dan tertidur lagi~

2009-05-08T18:46:00.006+08:00

I sat, flipped through my textbook, lie down for a while, went to the toilet, back on the book, wrote down two sentences, and went lying on the bed like a snake.

One, two, three...

By the count of three, my eyes were already shut closed. And then I forced myself to wake up.

I turned on my mp3-full blast. But it didnt worked. So, I get up, went straight ahead and sit in front of my computer.

And taddaaa~ I found myself blogging. -.-"

My day today is motive-less.

English,and malay paper was both difficult to attempt.

Well, obvious-for a lazy person like me who doesn't study but sleeeeeeeeep?

-.-"

To begin with, I didn't know why am I too tired these few days.

I rarely speak up to anyone. Rarely made conversations, unless necessary.

I'm not being emo, I'm not being moody or angry or sad or depressed.

But I'm just feeling TIRED and SLEEPY.

And at every moment in school, what appeared in my head was my tilam(although it doesn't look appetizing) and me with my PJs on, going to sleep.

Nah, forget it before it gets a little exaggerating.

ANYWAY, good news!

MAS SELAMAT WAS FOUND IN MALAYSIA.

hahhaaa.

Well, I didn't knew until Zakiah told me this morning.

"Eh?! Kau tak tau? Headline sey!" Zakiah said.

So uh, I didnt know. :(

All this basic things.. Omg, I'm turning into a frog under a coconut shell.

It's a malay proverb actually.. (seperti katak di bawah tempurung.)

So, uh yea..........

I was selected to join the 'amazing race' in madrasah.

But, my mom disallowed.

Blah.

"Sudah lah.. kan nak exam.."

And next year in may, my sister is getting married.

Followed by my bro on the october, the same year.

And I could not go oversea for the whole year, even after my O's.

Pathetic right?

Ah kawen lah, kawen lah sumer org kawen~

I know, I know, I sound like a mak-nenek now.

Went to CP with Naz just now to get a mother's day gift.

We bought the same type of mugs for our mom at hallmark.

heheheeh.

Thought of baking mom a cake, but it wouldnt be a surprise already cause I will be baking it in front of her right?! @.@

Then, we proceed down to get some bread pan and chatted under the void deck for a while. It was great. :D

And then, I went straight home.

Reached home at around 5pm.(:

"Kau ni kenape? Penaat je ibu tengok. Pergilah tido, nanti bangun boleh blaja..." mom said.

Yeah right.. Tengoklah eh, kalau sempat bangun. eheeehee.

And my eyes is giving me hard time.

So now, three conditions:

Tired, sleepy, headache.

I know, nadiah.. everybody is tired too. Yes, of course. I know SOME people are MORE tired than me..

But just, give me a little space to complain. For it's only occassionally I complained.

Hahahhhaaaa~

I'm OFF! BYE!

*BIG YAWN*

Total tire.

2009-05-03T18:50:00.004+08:00

Mesmerising eyes. O.o

I love kids. They are just like a gift from heaven.

Well.. ?!

Madrasah-ed today.

Sigh.

Tired until I fell asleep on the bus. xD

Sleepy until I went into a boy's toilet this morning. xD

"ehem ehem. Nak jadi lelaki ke?" haahahaha.

And, oh. That ^%$**$#@ guy in my class whom everybody says he's hot...

Yea right, he's an attention seeker!

Haiya, a lot of girls are going after him uh?

Why is he the main target because he is just oh-so-handsome?!

I mean, attitude matters too right?

How dare he insulted his own friend?

Well, eww~ Maybe he thinks he's the most perfect guy in this world.

PIGI DAAAAA~

What an attitude. I'm disgusted. I hate people who insults- first on my list.

Entah ah. Currently I'm lazy to entertain all those contradictions.

Whatever that come by,will just come by.

If he really mean it, then he will show.

I'm tired of not being myself. :(

Anyway, I apologise,cicak..

I apologise for being such a selfish person today.

I felt so bad. Really very bad.

I should have waited for you that morning and be late together like we always do.

And I should have, followed you to take 62 to make you happy at least cause you could at least get to see someone there..

I'm such a selfish person.

I don't know why is it today?

Guess it's just not me.

I'm really very sorry nur rosliana bte roslan. :(

I'm REALLY tired now.

Gawd, I have not done ANYTHING yet for prelims.

Felt so tensed up.

Right,I'm off to sleep.

Goodnight,sleeptight.

Blah blah blah.

2009-05-02T21:37:00.005+08:00

It's ~~marley~~ mummy and me. :D

Hahaha. >.<

Well, today was quite an enjoyable day,I shall say.

I had the best outing with mom after I nearly rot at home. hahaaa. :P

(and waiting for someone to finally call me up to chat on the phone.chkk.)

Everyone is out.

One to mustafa, another to heartland.

sigh sigh sigh.

But I did went out with mom in the afternoon, so I'm not so deprived I guess.

Well,uh.. we were finding present for my aunt's birthday.

And also, ehem.. for someone's birthday who falls on the 20th may.

hahaa. (Nazurah is getting older. *Evil laughs*)

Well, my mom bought for aunt this **** (alamak! secret ah. I can't tell. I've already promised mom. chk.)
So yea, ate Kfc fried chicken. Which I asked for ribs, but she gave me breast. -.-"

It's okay, I understand how stressful it is to be at your place.

And so, I felt this satisfaction after a loooong kempunan over kfc chicken. wee! Finally. :D

But Omg, after I ate such a big piece of chicken, I suddenly regretted again.

Oh-No!

Yesterday I ate six sticks of satay, and today a piece of big breast chicken? chk chk chk.

Sumbat dan tersumbat.

BIG- HAIYO. :(

Uh, and my dad was now busy asking me about hotmail, mail, yahoo mail...

grr. -.-"

It's not that I wouldn't want to help.. But sometimes, he was blurred and could get me into that blurry situation.

You get it?

haiya... Of course you get it. hehehee. :P

So, yea.. guess I inherited his genes.

Nevermind oh nevermind.

Anyway, ros-cicak called me!!!! weeee! :D

FINALLY.

I'm so really gonna talk to her tonight.

I miss her man. ALOT ALOT.

Roslianaaa~ dun sleep yet! wait wait. Few while moreeeee.

(I miss her? Although we're meeting tomorrow? well, that's lame actually. But yea, you know I love to exaggerate. Forgive me. hehehe.)

Till here.

Goodnight,sleeptight,sweetdreams,be blessed,smile! (:

NAMASTE!

2009-05-02T12:06:00.010+08:00

Woo. Bilik berserak hor. aiyo amma appa! hahaa.

Good Morning peepol! :D

I woke up eeeeaaarrrlyyy today.

Because I had a nightmare. -.-"

I'm not really sure of when the whole nightmare started, but I know it ended at 07.30am.

O.o

I ate 6 sticks of satay yesterday night. Slurrrrps. :P

It was very-very-very times ten to the power of 100 delicious ah. ^.^

But after that, I regretted. Like, alamak! I shouldn't have eaten cause it's fattening yea.

For a fat person like me,especially. Big big NO. :(
Haiya, what to do...

Temptations beb~

Next thing was, I am watching HANTU AMBULANCE.

hahahahaha.

Dengar title je dah boleh ketawaa~

It's very nonsensical. Ambulance boleh jadi hantu kepeeer?

So, yea.

Although I know it's going to be lame, I still watched. O.o

Heh.

It's not as lame actually.

It's freeeaaaking scary. :)

Conclusions: Don't judge the book by its title~

But one weird thing about me eh.

Just to share luh k...

When I'm scared, or I feel like there's something is different, I will laugh and make noise.

By laughing and making noise can resist my fear.

So, everytime I am watching horror movies and I felt scared, I will laugh my ass out.

Really.

Righhht. I thought of cooking today.

Maybe sweet and sour prawn.

Fuh~ Sedaaap beb.

Alrightt. Have to start digging my recipe daaa~

BYE!

*drools* :P

P.s: It had been nearly a week, and all those words still can't get out of my head. I'm going crazy. @.@

Teach me how to be patient can? =.="

2009-05-01T08:45:00.005+08:00

Nile river; EGYPT. :D

Mesmerising. Gawd. Egypt is pretty pretty. And I wish upon a star... I wish I could visit Egypt someday. (: You know, I've been wanting that for so long. Egypt is just.. something relaxing, something calm and something full of history. Right. I know this is dry. NEXT>

"It's nice to be important,but it is more important to be nice."

John Marks Templeton

I went down to get some vegetables for mum yesterday. While I was walking to the store, I saw a few minah walking passed by. They stared at me. Then, I remembered rosliana's blog post about a few minahs who were staring at her.

Then I wondered, "Uhh.. kenape eh, minah minah suke tengok tengok?" So, what I did was, I turned to them, and I gave a wide smile. hahahaaa. >.<

And what they did was, they smiled back at me. hahaa. It's very funny. But then, just as I was about to walk one step further, they called for me and asked me for directions to block****.

Minah: " Eh! Kau tinggal sini kan?"

Me: " Ye, kenape?"

Minah: " Eh, kau tau block *** tak? Yang ade basketball court?"

Me: " Uh.. yea. U need to take bus 27 on the opposite bus stop. Sini nye area takde block ****."

Minah: "Oh!Abe stop kat mane?"

Me: " Urm.. macammane eh nak bilang. Uh.. k. Nanti kau dah nak naik bus, kau tanye bus driver ah k."

Minah: "Kau tak tau ke?"

Me: "Tau. Tapi susah nak explain."

Minah: "Makkau! K lah takpe ah. thanks eh. BYE!" (all the minah were giggling and laughing loudly)

I just walked off. hahaa. Well, nothing is funny actually. Wondered why did they laughed so loudly. Biase ah.. minah minah selalu ketawe ketawe. Tak klaka pun ketawe. =.=" Ape saje je.

So yea.. such a funny incident. :/

Last night, I dreamt of sth weird. haha. Naz wanted to chat with me after her ngaji.. But by that time, I was off to sleep. So very sorry. But, we'll talk!!! This night k. (: I messaged noris just before I went to sleep.

Last message noris sent me was very funny.

Me: " Eh, dalahh.. aku dah nak tido ah.. penat sey. Slamat malam oh sayangku noris~ hahaha!"

Noris: "Hahaha. Ok. Mimpi pasal i eh.. i syg u!"

Hahahaaa. And then I was laughing like crazy. Shai tak datang yesterday. Get well soon eh. (: I miss talking to cicak. The other day, I told her about that weird and contadicting incident. But that was for a while only. tsk tsk. :( The next night we talk again k, (:

And I still want to know if it is true or not. Is it?! Why does it take a long time for you to move one step deeper? But nah... I'm not expecting anything. Maybe what he said was just a joke. :(

Anyway,I learnt from my past. Of course, I don't want everything to happen like my past. It takes me four years to move on. I'm not cursing you but I guess you are facing through what you did to me previously. I hope you will have the strength to go through everything by your own. Life will never ever be perfect, but be happy.

What I always tell myself was, " Never do anything that hurt others, ask politely,answer nicely.You never know what will happen to you next. Believe in retribution. One day it's you who does this, the next time it's others who did that to you."

Bersabar syafiqaaaah... (:

You drive me craaaazy

2009-04-30T17:09:00.003+08:00

Something drive me crazy for this whole week.
I don't know how to state this, but I'm just..... utterly speechless.
I dont know anything about how I'm feeling right now. (Uh yea, actually I do! ^.^)
But I know, this feelings just made me a little crazy.
Urm.. wait wait. DOn't be afraid of me.I'm not THAT like THAT crazy lah. Aiyo.
I guess my heart is going crazy.

I don't know....
Are you stating the facts?
Or was it a joke?
mmmm....

It's okay. Forget about it before I get more crazier. :P

But by the way, I'm in Fnn Lab right now.
It is 17:30 and I'm not homed yet.
Lousy lah eh.
Takpe yeer... take it slow and steady eh.. relax...chill..
syafiqah boleh~
-.-"

Okay, stop blabbering syafiqah.
I guess I'm talking crap.
Haaah.
Till next time.(:

2009-04-26T19:36:00.002+08:00

"Except divine intervention"

Blah blah blah~ Madrasah's over.

Hyper today. :)

But, urm.. someone was stoned throughout eh.

What telah happen? hahaha.

Siapakah itu?

No no no.. bukan rosliana.

Rosliana sentiasa gila dan tidak akan menye-tone. eheeeheheee.

Then there's this no-taste-ah-aiyo girls, who kept on saying that 'edward' is hot, is cute,and they liked him. When, the fact is, he's a normal guy. With typical looks. Except that he looks like caucasian only lah. But,blah~ I don't have the taste for rempah orang putih babe. ^.^

I saw.. muhyddin. Our old friend. Still as shy eh? I wanted to smile, but he was looking down all the way, so uh.. :(

I went pasar malam and my sister bought a pair of little miss dress PJs. Mine was tweety bird. hahaaa. Love it! (: Thanks sista~ We bought food lah of course, and the best thing was, we bought DURIAN. Oh-man~ love it. (: And the durians were all oh-so-lovely.

And my dress smells like a pasar malam now.

Well, I have to go~

G O O D N I G H T! :D

What happens when the fonts are bright? eheehe. happy highlighting!

2009-04-25T13:18:00.005+08:00

Good morning world!

Wow, I realised I woke up early today. When actually I told Naz this yesterday:

"YEssa! besok saturday,boleh bangun lambat!"

heh. :/

"The talent for being happy is appreciating and liking what you have,instead of what you don't have." Woody Allen

Okay, at least this thing makes me a little bit motivated.

I'm stressed!

Well, you can just tell that by the amount of volcano on my face. Woah Woah Woah.

By this time, it exploded. (:

Nah.. not that stressed up actually. I'm just exaggerating. I'm just a little bit tensed up.

It's just that, I don't know how to describe this feeling of whatever.

Just to let you know, I am sad actually. I am sad when both my brother and sister is getting married soon and then I'm left with only my parents in the house. :(

Obviously, things will not be like it used to be. Like when I am facing 'catastrophe' in school, and I went home,crying and whining like one year old girl. I'll be banging the door, and my sister will be the one who will knock the door and asked me," why, what happened in school?"

And then, my brother will pull my hair and punch me in the arm, turn me upside down, making me irritated but I will end up laughing...

I know, all this will end once each of us gets married. And although I am overjoyed to see my siblings get married, I have this slightest sad feeling within me. I felt really sad to see that now, both my siblings were busy with their fiance, and their new house booking. Then one day, they will both get married and I am sure I'll miss them alot.

But it's okay, let's think on the bright side of life.

I will have nephews, and I could visit my sister at her house, or buzz her at night..

And I will call my brother to ask if he's fine. (That sounds awkward but,yeaa..)

Right next, I will be having my prelims this thursday.

Shiaattt!

I should have start revising.

Oh ya.. I read seventeen and they say capricon guys might take forever to take a move.

And I wonder....

hahaaa. :P

Yesterday, I went CP with naz..with a bad intention.Psst..hehehe.

Coincidentally, when we are in the library, we saw noris.

And it's kinda funny.

Naz: " Eh,kawan kau ah!"

haha, padahal noris kan kawan kau jugak! Merepek meraban lah. haha

We saw acik, by coincidence after sth sth happened between acik and one of my babes.

We went harvey norman.. And checked out the apple store. And we found out that the earphones are AWESOME. (:

And we dealt to get the same ipod. (: Can't wait for it.

We also want to get an accoustic guitar by the end of this year,so that we can use it for prom.

Insya allah.

We went popular bookstore, and that's when we browsed through the magazines to check for horoscopes and celebs.

And it's a funny day. When we were about to go home, we can still go econ to get soya bean and then lepak some more.

Thanks alot naz for the treat and noris for the enjoyable day! hahhaa. (:

If only shai get to join us... :(

Shai was in depressed mood lately. Well, I think I've talked to you enough,and now it's the time for you to decide yea babe. Just remember that me and naz will be around to be there for you aite. (:

And yea, so.. err.. I miss cicak also lah actually. And syarafa also. :(

Bila lah boleh keluar together lagi macam dulu eh?

haitss.

Nevermind, soon.. (:

Right homosapiensss~ I'm off!

2009-04-22T20:48:00.003+08:00

Perhaps one post for each month eh?

heeehks. :P

It's late already but I just can't sleep now. Not yet.

I'm waiting for my sister who went genting happily with her friends for three days.

Damn, I miss her looooots.

But once she's back, I'm gonna miss the bed.

Urm.. I slept on the bed for the past three days,and

so I'll be back on the floor,on my oh-how-should-I-describe matress.

Nyeh.

My granny says her matress looks better than mine.

bleah.

Maybe? haaah. So long there's no creepy crawlies like dustmites or whatever, it's fine already. (:

Grr~

Talking about creepy crawlies,I find bees disgusting.

Just this morning, I was freaked out when a huge bee entering my classroom and went flying all around us.

Obviously we were covering our heads with books when the bee is happily flying all around the classroom.

And then I went haywired.

I started to think sideways a little bit lah.

I was thinking like this,

how if the bee didn't managed to sting my head, then the bee could sting my fingers right?

So what I did was, I hide my hands together with my head under the book.

Fuh.

But everything got crammed up after one minute.

Fortunately, cikgu M saved our lives! (woah,dramatic eh? -.-")

She took this dettol insecticide and sprayyyyyyyy on the bee.

And then...

Inalillah wa innailaihi raaji uun. (:

Kita sedekahkan al fatihah untuk si lebah tu bersama sama ye.

kehkehkeh. :P

Ehem.

Next thing was I had oral after school.

Okaylah. Quite lousy actually.

haha.

So yea.. My mom skipped my allowance today.

And when my friends were eating, my saliva was drooling.

Really man, I was super hungry today.

And it's always like this:

When I have money, I'm not hungry.

When I don't, I am hungry.

*slaps forehead*

And oh, I love Ms Chhh.

Cause she showed us this motivational video of susan boyle that actually kept me inspired.

Thanks yaw.

Right.I'm done.

BYE. (:

P.s: Things are never going to be blissful. Each day I have to face through seems like a congested traffic.

2009-04-01T20:47:00.005+08:00

HEY! hehe.

I'm back after decades. After my friends "seduced" me to blog in.hehehehh. :P

Well, the picture above is taken after our tiring day doing voluntary work at mendaki.Nah, actually not that tiring.We get to meet older people. hehee. As in really older. I'm 16, and I'm one of the youngest there.So it's me and sis hawa. heee! best dapat jumpa diaaa. (:

Umm.. wonder why it's private these days?I will put my blog on private if I am too busy to update.So,don't worry cause I'll put it on public once I'm free to blog again kaay. (:
heh, info for those who asked me yea. (:

Btwaay, Naz had taught me the chords for love story. Reeeaally love it babe.

Thanks alot, for being my mentor. hahks. (:

And oh,I can't wait for the next volunteering session.

Tiga M~

And shai called me baby jones.

Apa saakk. *slaps forehead*

Okay, that's random. (:

I went online, then offline.

Cause I thought of doing my maths homework.

When I suddenly have the urge to blog.

Then, I online again.

Chatting with shairah aje on msn.

I don't know why am I always the victim of barbarians.

Last time, a guy showed me how he masturbated via webcam. Bambinopuequerosbacin.

Haaa.

then just now, got this bangau asked me to "play" with him and he wanted to pay me if I do so.

Very the kurangajar kan?

Do I look like one po-lo-guay?

I'm not that cheap okay.

=.="

Aku tak maafkan korang ah sampai ke akhir hayatku~ tsk tsk tsk.

Yeaaaa.. So,I'm off now.

Going to do my maths homework daaa.

Manyak homework hor!

And cicak was tensed up these days.

Must happy happy okay.(:

Everyone lives with problems,babe. And each problems you faced,makes you a little wiser.

Sometimes, people loves to make you feel bad about yourself.

But, who the heck cares right? We all human beings live in the same phase.

God is there to be the witness,and the judge.

So everytime if you feel down, think this way:

You Are Not Alone. Kaaaay! =D

Sayang kaw!

I had Mrs Phil's brownies nowww.

Sedaapp giler. (:

2009-02-28T17:54:00.006+08:00

With my bestfriend. (:

This guitar, he delight me when I'm down.

he helped me feel relaxed when I'm tensed.

he brings happiness.

And entertain me,when I've no one to consolidate.

Well, something happened to me today.

It's not the first time though, I'd predicted it already.

I knew they were to bad-mouthed me.

But why me?

What have I done to them all that they would say such a thing?

No wonder they giggled when I was walking past them.

Am I at fault? Or am I fated to be their gossiping "target"?

So,uhh..

SOMEONE told me everything.

Glad to have such a nice friend like her who informed me about what I didnt know.

So, I thought for a while.

"Syafiqah,muke dier cantek,baek, tapi perangai mcm toot." this SOMEONE told me that someone in their group said this.

Well, I dislike stating in name here you see.

I hate to humiliate others. But if you would wish to, tell me straight and I could like, uhh..make you famous in my blog. hahaha~ (:

hmm.. but hey! It's true enough. I admit that I hadn't had a perfect attitude.

And I'm bad. Oh-yes,BAD.. O.o

=.="

To begin with, they are perfect and angellic. That's why they criticise others.

And it's not only me,I heard.. They gossiped about aisyah 4A too..

WOW!

I didnt knew that they spotchecked on people's attitude, made record or even bind our record history to make a book to sell!

ROFL.

But I got disappointed for awhile. I thought their smiles were sincere. Their apologies, during sec three camp, were sincere... And I can't expect one of them, who kept on asking zakiah every after I talked to her "Eh, dier cakap ape uh tadi kat kau?!!". Because I thought she was the good one. Bleah.

But now I know everything.

Thanks to my sincere friends, who are concerned,listened and adviced a lot.

Iloveyooguysandgirls.(:
______________________________

Oh,niwaeee... I can't wait for the SP4 combined team tournament next week! It's gonna be gerek and superb, for sure. Uhh, yeaaa.. I did tarot cards at myspace. Shairah taught me so. hahaha. But I didn't got the reply yet.. I wonder why.. They say I'll get my reply in 24-46 hours.

Hmm.. guess I have to wait! But I am eager to read my repliesssss! Anyway, my brother's engagement is coming. One more week to go! When's my turn? Nyehahaha! Gatalun. :P

Well,uhh I guess I won't be following them because my aunt want to follow.SO I'll be at home with kak we or so.. heee. (:

So, someone told me that he'll be supplying me sweets if I won a game with him. I'm waitingg.... I won, okay. But hey, where are my sweeettttss!?!?!?! khairulamsyar pun samer. Kate nak kasi chocz if I pass my ST.. But bahahhaa...I failed. So, tidak mengapa lah. :'(

AND... I have to do this..

CONGRATS NADIAH! for making it thru... Last long aiteeey.

NADIAHLOVESNASIRLOVESNADIAH! weeee!

psst: I love nadiah too. Let's make scandals,baby! (: oopsey!

Girl,interrupted: Page38/ (aku dah bilang kau,aku semangat lima minit je. hehehe.)

2009-02-27T19:03:00.003+08:00

27 Febby.

SO it's friday! *Jumps around*.

Naaah. Monday is mock exam. :(

And I'm up to another whole week of test test tests!

Grrzz.

Cicak told me about her bills.

So yea.. pity her.

Guess her allowance will be cut off.

Bersabaar rosliana. (:
It's only one month cut allowance, so the next month you can go

jump around and shout "hooray!".

hehehe.

I just reached home from R.M..

And I was supposed to get mom something called asam.

I'm confident that I got it right, so I didnt asked her for further details.

So I went and buy her one packet of the nicest buahasam in the world.

When I went home, I thought I would be praised for buying the nicest buahasam.

But, nahh... my instincts were not right today though.

"Aku suruh kau beli asam keping, kau beli buahasam! Kau ni membazir duit aku je...abeyy mcm mane nak masak asam pedas ni?!!"

And she will not end, I tell you.

I know I'm at fault.

So I went inside my room and I giggled.

For such idiocity.

Children, next time ask your mom specifically before buying what they asked for eh? x)

Kikkikikikkkikiki. *giggles*

SO I learnt a lesson.(:

Went home at 4:30 today, and went home with zakiah.

damn,I miss _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _.

hehheheee.

Oh, anyway.. Nadiah forgot to take her cadbury chocs from me.

And I thought of bringing it home and eat for myself.

Latif nearly stole away your chocz from me okay!

I'm a good warrior.

I saved your chocz.

hahaha. Lol? mepek siaaaa.

So,I passed it to azira I think.

To pass it to you.

Hope you got the chocz that are meant to be for ***** eh? xD

heheheehe.

eh eh eh! ^.^

Nadiah blush blush~

Cicak talked to me yesterday till 11:30pm.

I slept at 2:45am after listening music and ~~day~~nightdreaming

after talking to cicak on my tilam.

Lama eh? hhehehe.

And I woke up at 6:45am today.

heeks.

LATE LATE LATE!

Nasib zakiah tunggu.

Thanks babeeee! Syg kaw!

And oh, I had cramps today.

BAD ONE.

But I think it's getting better now. (:

Aim to sleep early today day day~

Why do I keep running from the truth?

All I ever think about is you,

You got me hypnotized, so mesmerized ♥

2009-02-26T20:41:00.006+08:00

20:56.

At home, reading (girl, interrupted),while blogging and listening to music?

ahhhaa. tripletask.

Homeworks, maths...VECTORS. Bley pengsan. =.=

Finished Fnn coursework, finalised my interview-draft.

FINALLY!

I didnt wait for Naz just now. I feel so sorry. :(

Anyway,had an ok-ok day.

But perhaps, the afterschool is a good one.

I saw samuelrizal's clone in school.

I spot it!

Although it looks slightly different, but uhhhh~ he looks hot with bald hair.

Like,errr.. an exact replica of samuel rizal's back.

Only undeveloped muscles.

Hahaa. :P

Mock exams are coming nearer..

I hope I hope I could pass all my tests...

Had english,bio,maths,malay,ss and fnn lesson for the whole day.

Bio was great! heee.

Went home at 16:25 and had enough onehour to watch anak betong with mom.

yessa! ^.^

Then, exboyfee buzzbuzz.

I was quite shocked though.

It was long ago since we buzzed. Wonder why he said hello.

But, I ignored because I am too busy engaging myself with other stuffs.

I just wonder why..

Need help? Emergency? House on fire? Whyyyy?!

I don't even have the guts to reply.

Have you ever,feel like you're astonished yet ashamed to talk again to your exboyfee?

If you are, you are just right here,in my shoes..

I have to tell cicak already~

She's the best advisor,but can't advice herself,unfortunately.

hehehee. :P

Anyway,you eager to know more about your horoscopes?

I'm a cancer baby,how bout you eh?

nazurah got me this, check it out for your own!

Uh,just don't bother about the bad luck sending thing..

CAPRICORN - The Go-Getter (Dec 22 - Jan 19) Patient and wise. Practical and rigid. Ambitious. Tends to be Good-looking. Humorous and funny. Can be a bit shy and reserved. Often pessimistic. Capricorns tend to act before they think and can be Unfriendly at times. Hold grudges. Like competition. Get what they want. 20 years of good luck if you forward.

AQUARIUS - The Sweetheart (Jan 20 - Feb 18) Optimistic and honest. Sweet personality. Very independent. Inventive and intelligent. Friendly and loyal. Can seem unemotional. Can be a bit rebellious. Very stubborn, but original and unique. Attractive on the inside and out. Eccentric personality. 11 years of luck if you forward.

PISCES - The Dreamer (Feb 19 - Mar 20) Generous, kind, and thoughtful. Very creative and imaginative. May become secretive and vague. Sensitive. Don't like details. Dreamy and unrealistic. Sympathetic and loving. Kind. Unselfish. Good kisser. Beautiful. 8 years of good luck if you forward.

ARIES - The Daredevil (Mar 21 - April 19)Energetic. Adventurous and spontaneous. Confident and enthusiastic. Fun. Loves a challenge. EXTREMELY impatient. Sometimes selfish. Short fuse. (Easily angered.) Lively, passionate, and sharp wit. Outgoing. Lose interest quickly - easily bored. Egotistical. Courageous and assertive. Tends to be physical and athletic. 16 years of good luck if you forward.

TAURUS - The Enduring One (April 20 - May 20) Charming but aggressive. Can come off as boring, but they are not. Hard workers. Warm-hearted. Strong, has endurance. Solid beings that are stable and secure in their ways. Not looking for shortcuts. Take pride in their beauty. Patient and reliable. Make great friends and give good advice. Loving and kind. Loves hard - passionate. Express themselves emotionally... Prone to ferocious temper-tantrums. Determined. Indulge them selves often.. Very generous. 12 years of good Luck if you forward

GEMINI - The Chatterbox (May 21 - June 20) Smart and witty. Outgoing, very chatty. Lively, energetic. Adaptable but needs to express them selves. Argumentative and outspoken. Like change. Versatile. Busy, sometimes nervous and tense. Gossips. May seem superficial or inconsistent. Beautiful physically and mentally. 5 years of bad luck if you do not forward.

CANCER - The Protector (June 21 - July 22)Moody, emotional. May be shy. Very loving and caring. Pretty/handsome. Excellent partners for life. Protective. Inventive and imaginative. Cautious. Touchy-feely kind of person. Needs love from others. Easily hurt, but sympathetic. 16 years of bad luck if you do not forward.

LEO - The Boss (July 23 - Aug 22) Very organized. Need order in their lives - like being in control. Like boundaries. Tend to take over everything. Bossy. Like to help Others. Social and outgoing. Extroverted. Generous, warm-hearted. Sensitive. Creative energy. Full of themselves. Loving. Doing the right thing is important to Leos. Attractive. 13 years of bad luck if you do not forward.

VIRGO - The Perfectionist (Aug 23 - Sept 22)Dominant In relationships. Conservative. Always wants the last word. Argumentative. Worries. Very smart. Dislikes noise and chaos. Eager. Hardworking. Loyal. Beau tiful. Easy to talk to. Hard to please. Harsh. Practical and very fussy. Often shy. P essimistic. 7 years of bad luck if you do not forward.

LIBRA - The Harmonizer (Sept 23 - Oct 22)Nice to everyone they meet. Can't make up their mind. Have own unique appeal. Creative, energetic, and very social. Hates to be alone. Peaceful, generous. Very loving and beautiful. Flirtatious. Give in too easily. Procrastinators. Very gullible. 9 years of bad luck if you do not forward.

SCORPIO - The Intense One (Oct 23 - Nov 21)Very energetic. Intelligent. Can be jealous and/or possessive. Hardworking. Great kisser. Can become obsessive or secretive. Holds grudges. Attractive. Determined. Loves being in long relationships. Talkative. Romantic. Can be self-centered at times. Passionate and Emotional. 4 years of bad luck if you do not forward...

SAGITTARIUS - The Happy-Go-Lucky One (Nov 22 - Dec 21)Good-natured optimist. Doesn't want to grow up (Peter Pan Syndrome). Indulges self. Boastful. Likes luxuries and gambling.. Social and outgoing. Doesn't like responsibilities. Often fantasizes. Impatient. Fun to be around. Having lots of friends. Flirtatious. Doesn't like rules. Sometimes hypocritical.. Dislikes being confined - tight spaces or even tight clothes. Doesn't like being doubted. Beautiful inside and out.

Done!

Takecare peepoll.

I'm off to bed~

2009-02-25T19:16:00.004+08:00

Alive after death. :P

To begin with, I'm busily engaged with life. heeh.

I think a lot had happened, from the day I'm unable to attend school cause I'm sick till the day I sing and sing until god knows when I stop.

haha.

I don't know what's wrong with me, something abnormal, probably.

I kept procrastinating, especially with the assignments I had in school.

In addition to the abnormality, I kept on forgeting about DATE.

"Today what date ah?" That's my question-of-the-day.

I guess everyone around me is getting irritated already.
apologies. haha.

Right.. Development of my heebies jeebies hunnies?

Let me share, one by one.

Shai is infected with sore eyes.

It's a current thing, so I guess it should be "is" right?

Well, I apologise for my whatever-who-cares tenses.

Anyway, get well soon girl! (:

If not, someone has to keep a stock of panadols for her... haha.

Continuous- 4 biji panadol sehari~ hehehe.

oops. jgn mrh eh cik kak! :D

NAZURAH had been like my crazy gilole partner for the whole week.

I don't know why so, but we will laugh like crazy if we banged on each other.

Cause it reminds me of teletubbies, you know~ hahaha!

And omg, I'm jealous!

She's going EGYPT after O's!

Cheebies btul. ><

It's okay, I'm going L.A...!

Be jealous. hahaha. :P

Padahal tk pegi sey,hahhahaa. eksyen je.

Noris is still,fine... Only that she's still lost in cultural thingy you know~

Always thinking about her japanese bapok.

ehheheee. main main je horkaay.

But seriously, she got crazy over japanese hoolalas.

hehe.

But,I still salute her though.

She got the highest for history~

She's smart,I told you.

Have an ambition of becoming a lawyer, waaaaw~

Nadiah, is still on cloud nine..

Being in loved? Join the party with heerrr man!!

She has totally amazing luck this year, only that she didnt fulfill her promise for being happy for five days..hahaaa.

Sounds awkward?

Wanna know more????

????????????????????

???????????????????

Nah... ask her then! bluekkks! :P

Lastly, CICAK.NuRosliana bte roslan.

I wonder if she got this super power or sth..

Or she watched too much drama-mamas.

But, I respect her, because she was able to do sth majority of us can't do..

Including me. *tsk tsk*

But anyways, don't be too tensed up in love,girl.

Apparently,

there are aplenty of fishes in the sea..

Got hooked? haaah.

Then, u should sing this, "Lucky I'm in love with my cicak~"

Cause,seriously, if I were a boy~ I would have chose her to be one of my scandals.

hahaha.

I would make scandals with nadiah,noris,naz,shai,sinya,prissy and cicak~

How great. B)

hahhaaha!

Nahh, don't think otherwise.

I'm still,straight. :D

Currently reading: Girl,Interrupted.

A good novel, I sumpah.

Naz always chose a good book.

Thanks for chosing this book, it really interests me

and makes me keep on reading~~~

psst "I even bring it to the "jam_ _ _ " to read it..

huaak.

Okay, I'm gonna continue reading now....!

Nazurah is going hollywood! At bedok. =.="

ahhahaha.

Till here peepo..

Woah, today's post is like an essay sia!

hahahaa! xD

BYE!

mmmmm...

2009-02-15T19:12:00.004+08:00

Yes, "FINALLY!!!"
hahaha.

But guess what, this is not for long. I'm going to be off and away,till god knows when..
kekeke.
Don't tell me I didnt notify eh.
Now, I did horkaayy.
(:

SOrry for those who kept waiting for my posts and those who kept on asking me to update.
sooooorrrryyyy. :(
I rly can't make it.
I'm too busy, that's why.
:/

In a very depressed mood recently.
Well, personal matters I shall say.
For that, I won't elaborate.
Let me and only me to know about it.

I just hate it, I hate pesterings.
If I could,protest, I would have already.
But do you have enough proof that I'm the one?
I am already tensed up with my school work, don't make me tensed up further.
I'm so so sick of being accused.
Thanks for making my life even more hectic.
*SIGHS*

Told you this is not for long ryte?
SO yea, I'm off~
Tatatititutu.

(:

2009-02-02T20:39:00.003+08:00

FUh.

Like seriously,

Jason Mraz, I'm Yours.

Yes, I'm all yours.

Bahahahaa! :P

I likodidodeedaa him man. (:

He's cute, uh cute.

hahahaa.

And he has this very unique personality, humble, cool..

Wow.

X FACTOR.

whheeewhaawoo.

The only thing is he's staying way too far away from me.

haahks.

Ah anyway, to my friends, who kept on asking about my status,

Bleah.

Everyone is asking nowadays.

No one wants me lah. Aiyoyo.

hahahaaa.

Lol.

Hmm... there are, but I'll still be single till

I turned 18.

But, honest answer eh...

Only,teman rapat adalah.

Suka suka pun ada.

Yang suka pun ada.

Tetapi, biarlah rahsia.

ceyyy~

hahks. :P

Alright friends, no more enquiries huh?

Yea...cool. (:

2009-02-02T19:44:00.003+08:00

I'm currently tolerating a bad ache.

OHmy.

Grumpy old stomache doesnt seem to tolerate the food I take in today.

Did I ate anything wrong?

But so far, I remembered eating the gardenia-half-mould-bread.

But that was a week ago.

I didn't realised at first.

The packaging looked tempting, that's why I thought it's safe to eat.

bleahs.

My tummy needs a doctor.

I hope I'm able to attend school tmr. tsk tsk.

I had fun sharing doom's day stories with the rest of my friends today.

hehehe.

Unessential, I know.

But dooms day is actually my most favourite topic, you know.

I'd actually loved to observe the end of the world by myself,

I would want to observe the signs, I would want to!

But I'm afraid at the same time.

Ohmygee!

I can't go on alr..

My tummy's really painful.

Naughty eh niari!

bahaahaha.

Till god knows when I'll update again.

Whuaaaat?

2009-02-01T20:16:00.004+08:00

The changing of blogskins, again.

Haaahh. =.="

Sorry for the disturbance of my big picture eh.

I know it distracts you somehow.

Bleah, but I just feel like making my own skin today, so yeah this turned out. :)

I think somebody had made her be like,*im crazy in love*.

Somebody's cupid arrows, had poked her so deeply.

But do that person even care?

See, I don't want both my babes to get hurt because of you.

Without you realising,ya know.

Antara tiga manusia, cinta tiga persegi ttpi berbelah bagi.

Adakah itu dia cinta?

Nasib dua rakanku.

Antara pengorbanan, kelayakan dan cinta abadi.

Kenapa dia lagi??????????????

Kenapa dia lagi yang menghancurkan hati?

Cukuplah. :'(

Went madrasah with cicakun.

The first taking-bus-go-madrasah thing ya know..

heeh. =P

Cicakun kept on disturbing me with the "n*** aiskrim" in our class.

hahaah.

She told me that he kept on looking at me in class, without me realising.

Which is, WOW~

=.="

I don't even think so lor.

Who would even want to look at me?

Please ah eh.

And I told her this,

" Eh, ape je.. skali die tengok kat kau ke ape ke. Smarang smarang je."

Fiweeet. Cicak eh, skali eh... eh-hehehhehh. :P

And talked to khairulamsyar in th bus. But, for a while. Laughed alot.

Tk buley angkat wo.

He + Sardine face + that crap = The asthmatic attack.

Omygee!

And cicak is being VERY nice today, I'm gonna give a poor conduct for that!

Grrz! >:0

heee!

But thanks eh, for the bubble tea treat! (;

Okay, so I bought champs vitamin C chewy orange tablets for $6.90 per bottle.

Cheap, isn't it?

It tastes great too, mind you.

Don't call me cheapskate, oh well! ^.^

As predicted, my mom cooked lodeh.
:/
Eeeeeew.
Lodeh sucks like toooot.
Isn't there any other better foods to cook?
(Tak bersyukur betul la syafiqah. chk chk.)
:'(
Don't feel offended eh, lodeh-fans.
Tell you sth, I hate lontong,lodeh,rendang,ketupat since young.
So, for let's say I'm going to your house for hari raya,
cook for me nasi ayam, and not all those foods eh.
Much appreciated. ^.^
Hahaha. Tatawu malu la pulak. :P

Well,uh?!
Cepatnye dah monday.
Bangauuuzzzxz.
I have to do, err.. homeworks.
heeeh. biaselah tu. (:

Anyway, I viewed naz's and shai's blog.
thanks eh, for the messages.
It really touched my souls man.
You all, bestbabes, my sugary spice and everything nice. (:

I had a good one,
One meetup after so much misses.
tweet tweet~

2009-01-31T12:06:00.008+08:00

THE END OF THE WORLD?
Gaza, height of aggression.

Manusia seringkali lupa.
Akan siapakah penciptanya, siapakah yang memberi segalanya, siapakah yang melindunginya. Mereka hanya ingat tentang kepentingan duniawi.
Mengejar cinta antara manusia, mengejar keseronokkan, dan mendakap kehidupan sempurna. Jijiknya, orang yang tidak mengenang jasa tuhan. :(

I'm afraid of the end of th world. I'm afraid of the way the world is going to break apart, the way death is everywhere. I'm afraid if I hadn't had the time to do things I wanted to do in life. I'm afraid of god.

Now everywhere, world now there's no peace. Just look at how people suffered in war. The loss of family members, the loss of future ambitions, the loss of lives, the loss of infants who is just about to experience life.

I'm disappointed in how the world grew with technologies. I'm disappointed to be observing inhumanity. I'm disappointed in those who kills.

I'll always be praying for you, don't worry.
Now, this is what already written. The end of world is coming when war between human occurs.
I hope not. )':

Be thankful for the life you had now. Never say it sucks.

SURVEY bahaahahaa. :D

2009-01-30T17:26:00.002+08:00

This survey is kindof wasting your time, but hah. Since I'm bored,why not?
Enjoy peepol.

1. Put your iTunes on shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW OUTRAGEOUS IT SOUNDS!
4. Tag 10 friends who might enjoy doing the game as well as the person you got the note from.

IF SOMEONE SAYS "IS THIS OKAY" YOU SAY?
Shut up-trick daddy. (ahahaa. diam sudah lah kau.)

WHAT WOULD BEST DESCRIBE YOUR PERSONALITY?
Too much to ask- Avril lavigne. (heeeh. :P)

WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?
Biarlah Rahsia- Siti Nurhaliza. (hahahaa.. :O)

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE?
Happy people-R kelly. (WEE! :D)

WHAT IS YOUR MOTTO?
Whatever will be-tammin sursok

WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
Entah- Afgan

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
Indah- Utopia (ceywahh)

WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
Manusia Biasa-Dewa 19. (hahaaa lol.)

WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
Rindu- Raihan. ( ceyyy! mcm phm je..)

HOW WILL YOU DIE?
Astaghfirullahalazim- Hijjaz (hahahha!)

WHAT IS THE ONE THING YOU REGRET?
Semua tentang kita-Peterpan

WILL YOU EVER GET MARRIED?
Ayat ayat cinta-Rossa ^.^

DOES ANYONE LIKE YOU?
Who knew- Pink

IF YOU COULD GO BACK IN TIME, WHAT WOULD YOU CHANGE?
Dik-Wali (hahahaaa, tak related sungguh!)

WHAT HURTS RIGHT NOW?
Jalan cinta- Sherina (eh,mcm phm je ni bende...)

WHAT WILL YOU POST THIS AS?
Bubbly-Colbie Caillat

Uh well, anyone can do this, so long as you have the free time eh. hahaha..
But let's tag : Cicak, nazurah, Shairah, Nadiah, Azira, Erwin, fiRman,Nerwany,Shahridah,Syarafa. Don't want to do also can. hahaha. Anyone la! ^.^

BYE!

FRIDAY YBAB!

2009-01-30T16:53:00.003+08:00

Tweet tweet.

~hair,oh hair.. grow fast fast can?~

Caught a cold yesterday night, get to sleep finally after taking in panadol.

Woke up, late. Not the first time huh. nyeh.

Reached school just on time.
Very short time. Same thing. Doodley doo. And then, back home! :D

Thought there's anak betong today at tv3, sad huh, today's friday.

cheebs.

And again, had my sweet-sugar-delicious-sunshine peanut roll.

Haaaah. I'm in love, I'm in love with sunshine roll. ^.^

Oh,but now I miss cheezels.

That roundy cheezy crunchy fuhkebabom, keropok. *aloha*

Mommy daddy went shing sheong. *shing sheong,segala untuk kamu...*

hhaaahh. Kay.

And I'm left all alone with sisty.

BUT she's snoring like a pig now.

She had her night shift later, and left me to sleep alone tonight.

Nak nanges ah! :'(

Thought of going out later,but piku lazy to get up.

haaah.

So I survived a week of school day!

mcm happy gitu ah kan.

bahhaaaa.

Bye ah. Nak buat survey! (:

I had a bad week.

2009-01-29T19:57:00.005+08:00

i miss my sister... D:
She have been working for two morning shifts non stop..
Can't wait for her off days.
i miss you like LOTS sia,kakak.
:'(

sob.

My only sweety pie,
I apologise for everything. All the things I guess I shouldn't have let it out. I guess both of us are feeling the same way,right? When you shouldn't, cause I'm th one who's wrong. I guess we have to talk things out and let time cure th broken souls. I'm sorry, I'm v sorry to make you feel so low today. :'(
with lotsa love.

Guy-friend,
I apologise totally. I apologise for being rude, and I guess I hurt you.You know why I didn't accept huh, you know why so.
I'm traumatized with guys and previous relationships.But this doesn't mean anything. I need time to move on. This's nothing got to do with retribution. Nothing involving karma. I love you, from the bottom of my heart. But if you could,patiently wait, wait till it's the right time for me. I would love to stay on this way. I'm afraid everyt would change soon i started a relationship with u. I didnt mean to, be harsh on you yesterday. My mood just flung. I'll talk to you soon, dear guy friend, to talk things out.
Don't ever ever think my feelings changed towards you,because I won't.
with love.

sob.

I've been in a stupid mood recently. Idk why my brain's functional system went hay-wired. Tired with school works, tired with some things happening in school, and when I'm home,went online, on my msn, I'm tired to be seeing all those desperate malay men. But it's not all. Some are nice. Sick of it. I just hate desperate(s). My close friends know I'm tired. They know I'm not in a good mood this week.
UH-OH.

But hey, thanks bestbabes. You all make my day, and help me went through the odds in life.
You, Nur Shairah Bte Azman.
You, Nazurah Bte Zulkhairi.
You, Nadiah Bte Zulkifli.
You, Noris Marissa Bte Sazili.
And the prettiest lizard in town, Nur Rosliana Bte Roslan. haha. ^.^
I love you babes, I really do. All of you, I give th equal love. (:
I won't want to lose any of you.
I'm afraid of arguments, fights, and I hope we will not fight,argue or have bad feelings anymore.
Even if we do, it's parts and parcels of a friendship. But that's th past, hey, let's learn to treasure each other now kay. =D

I am proud of myself cause I'm able to say NO yesterday.To all those D.M.. aahaaa. :)
I guess experience taught me to be firmer.
I won't want to see myself, 3 years down the road, being as draggy and emotional again.
I had gone through those times, I wouldn't want to anymore.
Now is time for me to stay happy.
Don't ruin it, D.M..

So girls out there, be aware of making the right choice in choosing someone special. Even if you do, love someone, stay as friends first. Wait till it's the right time for you. I'm not being like "mcm phm" over here ah, but to go through the time when you rly love someone,but he left with another girl, or simpler said,breakups,is very difficult. Anyway, kita masih muda,so kita enjoy! (:
Banyak yang akan diketemu nanti,kerana perjalanan hidup masih lagi panjang. Pilih lah yang sesuai, jangan ikut suka suka sahaja. Choose because you love,not lust.

Ah anyway~ had sunshine roll again. haha.
And, watched anak betong on tv3. It's a good horror show.
Banyak actor/actress best bestt!
Don't forget to watch eh, 4.30pm every mon-thurs if u have tv3! (:

Shut up lo.

2009-01-28T19:19:00.004+08:00

Haha.

Someone went into my phone and saw this candid picture and started laughing his ass out.
I know I look sucky in there, but no choice.I HAVE to put this in, someone bribed me.

Kurangaja.

Sad story.

:'(

Well, on a sunday, me and firman went to e!hub when he saw all this nonsence on my phone.

hahhaa.

It's e!hub again. nyeh nyeh nyeh.

"EH! I KNOW HER!!"

He loves to irritate me with that dialouge eveytime he saw my pics

with his in additional, mintak-kena-sepak face.

And then took lotzie of pics with that apek which I very the malas wanna upload.

hahaha.

It's not essential anyway.

kan firman kan, tak essential kan? heheheh. :P

*Msn beeps "FIReMAn chitty says: Hello nyonya keling!"

mcm tau aja aku boboal psl die. =.="

Scary mary uhs. alamak!

Something,surprisingly, happened to me today in school.

Let only me and me knows about it kay. :D

After school, went prime supermarket (makkau! mcm nyonya nyonya sia)

to buy SUNSHINE ROLL. AHHH~ My favourite! Hot picks, peanut butter sunshine roll sedap like sedaaaaap LAH!
aiyoyo.

Cicak told me about the ghost things in my area.

Know what, you make me like superly widely awake for the whole night ok!

Plus, I watched Anak betong or betul or something at tv3 just now.

It's super scary ok!

I like ghost stories, but I hate it when I will keep on thinking about it and feel scared.

Tikos is timid,whuat?

*winks*

Tomorrow got school/ today got a lot of homeworks/my FNN typeout is not done yet.
I feel tired. Shai say, put teabags on your eyes.

I'm soooo gonna try it.
yebedabedooo~
Garcon mignon made me feel better afterall. Thanks alot eh. (:

Gong xi gong xi gong xi ni ah

2009-01-26T17:34:00.004+08:00

Woo. =D

Happy Chinese New Year.

And again,change of skin.bleahs.

Well how should I start?

Kaaay.

Today's kindof bore.

I'm still finding semua tentang kita's guitar chords.

And still learning through youtube.

I viewed Rin on the Rox videos, and their voice are superly amazing!

Infact they came out on ellen.

Heeh.

Click on the link eh,if you peeps wanna watch OR just type Rin On the Rox on the youtube's search button. (:

Anyway, I know how to play five songs for now,at least.

After 1 year and two months of playing guitar,FIVE SONGS ONLY?

haaah. I know lah. I'm a bit lembab,you see. :(

Oh ya, someone had deleted his blog.

bleah. Whatever.

I'm still gonna keep the link there.
hehheee. :P

Aite, will write soon when I have the time yaw.

I need to search on the best wedding planners for my sis now.

xoxo

Ehem

2009-01-26T14:16:00.019+08:00

BOWLING huhuLAS!

What a sad day. I'm at the bottom last, *cries*.

It's kinda sad to say, but I'm very lousy in bowling games,thanks ah thanks. hahahaa.

And that FifiQoh..sangat tak perlu. Thanks to shai eh for the fifiqoh. hahaha.

And that baby, that's nazurah's brother. I planned to matchmake him and rosliana's little sister. hahahaaa. But,sadly.. Nadir is 5 months younger. Too bad ah eh, illyana.

The powerpuff girls or the three little pigs?

Hahahahaaa.

Lol.

So, shai and me,with naz's specs on the left. But where's Naz?

I didnt get to snap snap with you la dey.

I told you my phone's spoilt,so no camera to take pictures lah.

All grabbed from shai's.

And I look like a geek with that specs. Or perhaps another better word,

INTELLECTUAL.

Hahaaahaa. Puh-leaaase~

With their balls.

Erk... O.o

Sounds so wrong.

Hhahahaha.
My friends and their bowling balls.

Ahhh~ sounds better.

ehehehe.

Guess I had lotsa fun hulu hala with my babes.

After that,we proceed to macdee to laptop-ing.

And to library,then went straight home where we saw a BIG dog with it's tounge sticking out at pasiris interchange.

So,naz went behind shai and I went behind Naz.

SO shai action heroine this time.

*Fighter pe shai*

hahaha. :P

Believe if you can't

2009-01-25T09:26:00.003+08:00

No mat-ras-ah!

hahahaaa.
I shouldn't be happy right?

I can't see garcon mignon yesterday.

And definitely,today too.

Sad story.

But well, whatever. I've other better things to see.

Hahahaa. Sounds so wrong. O.o

No no no, don't think the other way round,yellow brains. :P

kukukuku.

Man. This few weeks had been a blast.

But finally had five days of break at least.

I've been really mean to my guy-friend.

And kept on testing his little patience.

But it's so nice of you,to be still tolerating with my unappropriate behaviour.

I know it's only one-day-at-fault thing,but I guess that's enough to make me feel guilty till now.

I'm at fault,and I know I'm being overly unacceptably cranky.

PMS? oh don't blame on PMS anymore.

I have flaws too,remember?

I'm sorry,mr bomba. :'(

Next.

My primary one cousin sister came to my house to use my computer the other day.

And she went laughing like crazy.

I asked why.

She told me that my account user name(miss oolala) is very funny.

And she kept on repeating miss oolala miss oolala until today.

seow little nyonya.

=.="

SyafiQah

Why oh why can't I?

Now i add colours to my life.

I observed as I learn.

Sehari di pondok piza wakakakk

And this is how it goes...

Just another lazy cat who doesnt want to smile for the camera!hehe

Going M.I.A soon

WARNING! [heavy post]

My type of guy

Raya Raya update! :D

Open house.

Groggy

Cik kiah

Cik Bibah.

:D

Wooo. Kau membuatku tidur dan tertidur lagi~

Total tire.

Blah blah blah.

NAMASTE!

Teach me how to be patient can? =.="

You drive me craaaazy

What happens when the fonts are bright? eheehe. happy highlighting!

mmmmm...

(:

Whuaaaat?

SURVEY bahaahahaa. :D

FRIDAY YBAB!

I had a bad week.

Shut up lo.

Gong xi gong xi gong xi ni ah

*Ehem*

Believe if you can't

Ehem